sometimes, i dont feel like blogging

sometimes, when i read other ppl's posts about something, i dont feel like blogging anymore, cos sometimes i feel like i get pulled down to earth by other ppl's thoughts. i was going to blog bout how yesterday's teacher's day concert was so epic, and then after that me, lee, joo kee and huang were playing foosbal while doing chem assignment. i tot it was going to be quite a nice post.

but then later i met yong jen on the mrt just after huang left. he was visiting his primary school, maha bodhi or something. then i realised that i was supposed to go back to my primary school(s), meet my primary school friends and teachers, remember some stuff about last time. thats the whole point of teacher's day. gratitude to your teachers, and maybe meet up with friends from last time. the thing is, i really disliked what i was like in primary school, so therefore i was incorrigible there, and then everyone dint really like me. cos i was a slacker and basically just helpless last time. so i dint really have good memories about primary school. therefore i dont feel like going back there... for the past 4 years, i havent gone once.

anyway, secondary school was awesome. its like the ppl there are less cynical, for some reason. cos in my primary school the ppl there were like foo, byorn, claire, pin lin and zhi-en. i mean, zhi-en is very nice, but i bet he feels uncomfortable or something. you know the kind of feeling when someone not so nice is your project partner or something. anyway, they all super brainy de, and then i just got some crappy results cos i dint do anything in primary school. so secondary school was like completely different, but i realised i still kind of get ostracised when i was in year 1 and the first half of year 2.

anyway, after that i got to know 07 group, which was awesome, because i just dont fit in with 05. i was more like pretending to be someone else, so i dint really feel very good about hanging out with them. at least now can talk and joke freely. such that i feel like life is awesome now. quite sad that in 3 years time, we're gonna split...

this is the 101th post btw. i completely forgot about 100th post, but this is on quite a sad note... anyway, i might still blog abt yesterday, cos it sounds kind of happy. if u want me to...