boarding dinner

ok i shall try not to rant too much on the practicing for performance part haha.

it was really stressful actually. sometimes i felt really upset, cos pin and jookee could play the song already. they practiced until they were familiar, but for me, i couldn't sing as well as they wanted. it was lacking emotion, lacking power.

i felt like i wasn't putting enough effort, cos after all my role was the easiest to practice for. so i tried my best to accept whatever comments ppl gave me, but of course i felt rather terrible about it too. i kept thinking that i should not have assumed the singing role in the first place, cos i really couldn't do it well. but i guess nobody was really expecting too much i guess, so that kind of kept me going.

on the day itself, we suddenly thought of making our performance like less serious by doing retarded things, that's why there was that short intro at the start and the random panda and the random scene at the end. but i kind of screwed the intro up, cos i was nervous heh. basically cos hyouka had four members, but one of them wants to conserve energy, and we kinda made up the panda thing as satoshi being retarded lol.

it helped make the whole thing less serious and more like a for fun thing, which made me kinda of excited and nervous at the same time just before the performance. i don't really know how to describe it, but its like a very ticklish feeling in the chest that makes u feel like cringing.

i tried to sing with as much ease but yet with emotion. i don't really know how it worked out, but it felt rather genuine for a moment and i was pretty surprised by how much ppl cheered lol. i knew i looked very nervous on stage, so yea since it was my first time i guess ppl wanted to help me. but i was somewhat surprised that i could actually smile lol.

and it felt really good after we finished performing, though i kinda screwed the last scene up too. it was supposed to be funny, but i think we screwed that part up. whatever la. the adrenaline rush after the performance was pretty awesome. and we are lucky we performed first haha, cos we got to enjoy the rest of the performances and eat food. like those performances in the middle probably would be too nervous to eat.

honestly though, i can't decide whether i should continue singing. it feels much less stressful if i just sing to myself but don't perform it to such a big stage. i think it is pretty fun to be in a band, but maybe i should learn an instrument instead. right now i can only practice piano, though i think it'll take too long to master it. i guess i probably won't /o\.

after the first intermission with the photo montage that kept repeating, everyone was like all waiting to start the buffet haha. the names of the food sounded really good, so it made ppl really eager for the thing to start. but yea it disappointed alot of ppl lol. i think it was fine la. i din't eat that much actually, as compared to other buffets. though we felt quite full. i think the fruit punch is a ploy to fill our stomachs up lol.

6B came with their avengers costumes, though i think the men in black were pretty epic. actually alot of epic stuff happened with 6B, but we were kind of too far to see what was happening. there was also kenryk being a grim reaper, and actually lots of impressive stuff. i din't really get the chance to walk around before everyone got seated and see what ppl were wearing though, so i only knew about some things after the whole event was over.

the games were pretty interesting. i liked the trivia, and the other activities were quite funny too. kenryk won the best dressed male haha, and wow he actually put the scythe on dr hang's head lol. then adrian was also wearing some ninja mask with the panda mask :0. its seriously darn scary, cos u can see adrian staring at u from underneath gosh >.<.

i kinda left before the fun got started though. the dj's were too loud, and i din't think that much would happen after that, so i kind of left early. missed out alot of epic stuff and group photos. so with that, the last event of boarding was over, and sigh, i kinda regret i dint really enjoy it as much as others.

i guess i shall put some pictures that i ripped off from many different albums :P (hey at least i bothered too :P), since it was quite a fun event (and kind of remind myself what i missed lol). i don't really know the chronological order, but whatever la.

deco



wow i din't realise that justing was wearing some glowing thing until now :0


that's supposed to cause some explosion right...


cool :D. really looked like he levitated and threw himself at the shield lol

in the end though, captain america 1, thor 0 :P

actually that bow is pretty hard to pull lol


swag.


its quite amazing how much effort 6B put in for these event heh


ouch lol.


the panda mask really suits him...


wow. just wow.




haha one of the only photos i took.

and stop it with those 'peace' signs :0

i din't know i missed a class photo D:  no one told me..


then all these was after i left


ok this looks pretty crazy actually...


badass lol.


and yea i still left out plenty more...

haiz i really missed out a lot... should have stayed there and seen all these for myself. i don't know much about the back part, except alot of couples got pushed together haha. ok la enough photos to make me satisfied liao lol. i wasn't even blogging about myself anymore... ok bye~~

i guess now i have to find something else to look forward for

my screw-up

its been quite some time since i posted. boarding dinner feels like such a long time ago, even though its only been just a week. alot of things has happened i guess. yea and i'll finish up my post about it too, though i probably forgot many details already.

so basically monday was class outing, which was really fun, and tuesday was outing with ex-07 ppl, though i was abit too tired to really go all out that day. wednesday and thursday was script checking, but now its finally over. and more and more ppl are moving out of hostel.

frankly, i kinda not want the holidays to come. its been a bit too free recently, and i still don't really know what to do during the holidays. also that hostel is coming to an end really soon. essentially, it has ended, and these few days weren't be much too different from the last except we'll be seeing much less ppl now.

i din't think the year flew past as fast as others did i guess. hostel has been really fun. alot of epic stuff has happened, and i guess i would miss it really badly next year. i felt like alot of things had changed. nvr felt so happy before, like there was so much more than the life i was living the 16 years before. 

i guess i probably din't do as much, experience the things that other ppl did, but it was still pretty epic and fun. i'll have alot of memories about it. i guess i din't do a very good job in blogging all these moments, but there are probably enough to remind me that it was a really happy time here(gah why am i speaking like its already over lol. i still have like two more weeks :P).

finally learnt the truth yesterday. of course when it first happened i was really sad, especially when i was alone, and suddenly the truth struck me. i kinda get how it feels now. but then someone shared certain things with me. it was meant to make me feel better. it wasn't exactly the things i wanted to hear, but it was good. i was told to feel happy about what happened, that it was a good thing. of course, i couldn't exactly go hahaha right away, but it helped me to accept it, and gave me some hope. that things would still go back to normal after this.

things don't always go the way u want to. i knew i screwed up big time, but then it din't really change the consequence anyway. so at least now i know. now i don't regret. i don't resent what has happened anymore, cos i kind of accepted things already. i still feel a twinge of weirdness. i don't really feel like watching anything, doing anything right now. but i guess i'll get over it pretty soon. im close to ok by now :)

ppl are intelligent. they could probably guess what happened just by those two paras above. i din't exactly feel like sharing it, especially those few hours from when it first happened. but i was honest about everything i wrote up there, at least in my point of view. i know, maybe i shudn't have shared this here, but anyway, if anyone understands what happened, just pretend like u don't know ok? thanks :)

ok la this is it for now. bye~~

though there still are some things i'd like to know, but i guess i can't say them anymore

sinful week

wow this week has been really, really sinful. good food + super bad sleeping patterns. and yea i haven't been on fb or twitter for 4 days, since this comp was hijacked used for borderlands lol. i estimate about 30 hours in total during these 4 days...

a lotttt of things have been done this week, and i really don't know how long this post will take lol.

slept at like three on monday night. and that's pretty early lol. the average for that week was like four am. blame fifa and borderlands. and then basically we wake up at lunch time (except tuesday had chinese). for some reason, i guess it's gamers mentality or something, but we just dunno why choose to sleep late and wake up late, even though its not like we can't play in the day or something, which yea we do actually.

so that was the life for like everyday, pretty much.

anyway, monday was class outing. it was spontaneous. kinda. we just met downstairs at 5 pm after physics. amazing how different it can feel just one hour after exams ended. there were 13 ppl who went, so not bad ba.

so we went to pizza hut after reaching harbourfront. there was this tropical hawaii pizza with garlic napoli sauce. ok doesn't sound funny. and then we also got ocean's catch and bbq chicken and then side dishes were some really tasty drumlets and cheese balls. ok if u don't take the fact that we went to riccioti the next day, then yea, the sides were damn good lol.

there was some tobasco sauce mini-competition. to yenling it was like no kick la, so she just spams. but wei jun went crazy and poured a hell lot on to his pizza, and yea his whole face went red and sweating. yea it drove him mental lol. chilli high.

after that, we just decided to walk around. ended up going to awfully chocolate, which was a rather awfully long walk, and basically when i tasted it, i had no reaction lol. i guess it was too pro for me to appreciate it.

we went to the roof after that, and just stood there and talked, then sat down in a circle, and played that ten finger game thing. then after that went back alr. ok la it was quite fun. thinking of having picnic for the next one, since those are really fun, but yea hard to plan. 

tuesday was cluster outing to riccioti :D. damn the food was so darn good lol. we waited pretty long till our food came, but yea it was good s--- worth waiting for.

first we got the pizza, and yea pizza hut really is no cake compared to this one lol. and we were playing scissors paper stone to decide who gets to choose the pizza first, since there was this slice with like most of the pepperoni on it. guess who won lol. so yea pin and jookee were the last two to choose. aha.

png was crazy btw. so zheng wei, chenglei, zijian and kevin split a 1.5 kg chicken among them 4, so that they had more money to eat the other stuff. for png he just ate one 1.5 kg chicken, by himself. yea. what a way to blow ur budget lolz. but i guess there's alot of protein in that chicken....

i traded my other piece of pizza for png's chicken, but wow i got a really 'generous' portion. but its enough ba, since there was quite a lot of food actually.

and my gorgonzola cheese pasta <3. the first taste was so heavenly. the cheese was so darn (i can't find a better descriptive word), until i just had to eat it slow-mo. and yea it keep getting nicked by the rest of them lol.

after that we had some rice ball side and gelato ice cream among 4 of us. so we had to top up 10 bucks per person, but ah well. worth it.

after that we just walked one big round around singapore river. for fun i guess. png was walking really fast lolz. but ya to burn fat. fine. after that, we just went back and spent the whole night off again. got hooked to doctor who lol. im pretty sure pin mentioned that in twitter somewhere, even though i can't know for sure. but wow, interesting. and yea the silence creeped me out, even though the angels didn't.

thursday was etiquette dinner and yea. i don't really know what to say lolz. everyone was like in suits and ties. damn i looked like such a kid, which i am la. and jookee just looked like a hongster :P.

bus ride there was extremely long. i guess they got lost, seeing how short the return trip was. and the etiquette thing took really long. first course was the bread and yea it was the best lolz. i shamelessly asked for another, but no i din't get one :o.

second round onwards, no one really cared bout etiquette already. hunger always triumphs lol. though actually eating slow makes u feel full more easily.

after that everyone was like roaming around lol. there was like couple spammage haha. bryan and dzung, then rachel and yang yi, and then kian wee and wei qi lolz.

it was probably really fun for other ppl ba, seeing as how many photos were taken. i took like only 3. yea i know, pathetic and the 4th one, no it didn't happen. i guess im too socially awkward for this kind of things. probably for others they took like 50 lol. i knew pin did. with his south east asian countries :P. yea inside joke, if u don't get it too bad lolol.

and yea today. since everyone knows alr, anyway, we got through! damn the audition was pretty scary lol. actually more like awkward. the judges weren't really judges, they were more like audiences. ms dr teh lol. but even still, my heart was racing. but yay got through anyway^^. so now what lol? next saturday's gonna be much, much more scarier. a lot of stress le >.<

anyway, i shud really revive watching anime, and learning jap. still so much moarrrr that i don't understand. maybe if i can reach the stage where i can understand anime without subs, that'll be really good. but long way to go man.

ok la nothing else le, bye.

i don't have the courage to be myself when u're around

exam week

yooo~~ im back... and don't worry, this post isn't going to be about exams.

yea the worst is over. especially inorg chem. that one's going to be a real challenge... but anyway, this week has been really fun. weird right, exam period, but yea it has. no im not talking about doing my exams well, but damn, the nights have been pretty epic.

so being bored one day, i decided to just take pin's phone and read through all his messages. and then i realised how epic his convos are with png and jiamin. especially jiamin's one, oh god its darn funny XD

so i was wondering how ppl actually make epic convos like these. and then i realise i always sound so curt when i sms ppl. like yes, no, ok. and then when ppl bullshit me, im like 'ok...' or 'lol', instead of replying with bullshit back to make epic convos.

i also went to read his messages to his mum, and ya im so darn jelly lol. why is his mum so nice? and then thus to 'help me improve my relationship with my mum, jiamin forcibly took my phone (again) and sent 'i love you!' to my mum. so at first i was like 'gg my life is over'. no i don't dislike my mum, but walao i just can't exactly pinpoint what i was so aggrieved about lol.

but wow, her reply was actually pretty interesting lol. and she called me afterwards and i 'cleared my name' ahahaha. i also cleared my name for everything else :D. nvr thought clearing my name would feel so good. but then i realised what jm did actually really did help lol. my mum was like talking about it haha. she even suggested i type the same thing back to u guys lolz.

and thus i realise my mum is actually pretty awesome, just that i wasn't talking to her enough. and that's cause i keep doing stupid stuff and getting myself scolded. so that's really my fault haha. but wow, that was interesting. but aha im learning how to text ppl :P (which equates to spamming la /o\). now im like getting about 20+ messages a day :D. never felt so loafed (loved) :P

jordan's getting really insane lol. he's doing stuff like putting pin's underwear and towel in the freezer (thankfully im no longer the target for that, except when i 'disrespect'). and when we tell bradley that, he was like "wh---". ya i think u get what i mean.

also, jordan did things like taping an umbrella to the table. im really impressed o.o

photographic evidence. but wow lol. pin's life is sadcos he is at the receiving end of all the stuff jm and png does to him :P

and our convos are getting epic-ier these days. stuff like helicopters, turning down the fan, boys loaf, truth revealed!, nohomo(jap accent) and 'ay, pin, ay'. and we all have some way of verbally attacking each other lol. like for pin, u can say burmese, or vietnamese :P.

and jiamin, my god. let's just say he is very eloquent :o. he even recorded down some of the convos we had. and i dunno where he gets the courage to say all the stuff he says, especially to pin, but damn. i pity pin lol, cos he keeps getting his 'softer areas' outraged. no we're not referring to anything particularly sick here, but oh god lol.

oh yea and we have sufficient prove that pin is homo. so basically we did something to his comp while he went to the toilet, then when he came back, we kept trying to insinuate something, like why is he so homo, or why should he worry getting touched by jiamin cos 'we know u like it'. but pin didn't get it lol. until like one hour later, when he saw his new desktop wallpaper, with five half-naked buff men looking at him. "truth revealed!"

yea jiamin got beaten up pretty badly XD. too epic lol.

other than that, i watched two evangelion movies (ya im too free >.<). and i din't do it enough justice, cos when jiamin asks me 'how was it' in that tone, for some reason i don't feel like replying :P. but i really think is truly super nice to watch. really. (don't kill me >.<)

so wow, despite being exam week, it was really fun lol. there's alot of nice things that are going to happen soon, but darn, hostel is ending already. no i want moarrrr days like these. but think about that next time ba. for now, just two more. and after that, yay :D. ok la nth else le, bye~~

u know its true when ur making other ppl like you even though ur still being urself