not enough time

this term passed by really fast. its the exam period now, and after that, just a few days of school left. only have those few 5 or 6 days where i get to see everyone. i realise i won't be seeing many people for a really long time from now. then hostel would end and then i'd have to wait till next year before everything comes back again.

i know i have been acting really strangely this term. but just as i realised how i should have just acted normally, it was over already. i know that my thoughts change very quickly, that maybe one month from now i'll be thinking of something different again. but its all stuck in my head now, and i can't concentrate. so i'll just say it now.

i've been pretty strange this term, but this is not actually how i really feel like. i guess at the point of time, i din't think i was doing anything wrong, but at the same time, i did notice something wasn't right. i guess i got overconcerned about what ppl thought. i probably overthought about it, and then i just spent all my time wondering what went wrong. i wish i could go back and just act normally as i used to, but i guess i'll probably have to wait next year.

its not like im saying i shouldn't care about what other ppl think, but then it made me do things that im not sure whether i actually wanted to or not, just to make other ppl think differently. i should have just did what i really meant to, stop keeping things from others, being aloof and all that.

i know now why term 3 was so awesome for me. its because i wasn't thinking about any end in mind and overcomplicating things. i just enjoyed the process, did what i did. i watched anime, learnt jap and jap songs, talked and have fun with classmates and clustermates. and i felt i achieved a little of something everyday, even if it was just a few minutes everyday. i was abit crazy, but i think i meant to do what i wanted to. i enjoyed all these thing, and thus i was happy about what i did. it make me feel great and look forward to things that would happen the next day.

maybe im not as strange as i thought after all, but rather all that thinking made me believe i was. and it had an effect on me. actually, what i want is just to talk to ppl like normal, hang out like normal, laugh about the funny things that happen everyday. instead of thinking about how all these things had no significance, i shud have felt happy when i did all these things this term, and just enjoy everything like i used to. and look forward to the next day.

i hope its not too late for me to realise this now, though it'll probably be next year before i can experience all these again. time to go back to normal now. stop being so distant and be overconcerned about what others think, cos that is not what i really want. cos it made me forget how to really enjoy my time here.

i hope that ppl realise that i just want to fit back in again. help me feel like i can interact with ppl like everyone else does. i dunno how's that going to happen, but i don't want ppl to misunderstand and think that i don't want to talk to them or that kind of thing. i guess in return i have to open up more and tell them what i really want.

i can only dream now, and im not sure how convicted i'll be when the time comes, whether i'll end up doing it, but all i know is how happy i would be if i really did.

ok la back to studying now. i guess i shud be able to concentrate better by now. but im sure i'll end up slacking somehow lolz. still gonna watch like 1 episode of anime everyday :o. ok la bye~~

its hard to believe that i would actually be able to do it when it feels so impossible, but some part of me tells me there's still hope if i really try

small things

i realised i haven't blogged about those small little events that happen everyday, just like i used to do so in year 4. it feels kind of empty actually that i haven't been mentioning these kind of things, even though they are quite insignificant. but when i look back to the history of my blog, i really haven't been mentioning much about hostel life to remember by.

anyway, wednesday was pretty eventful. actually nothing much happened la. just that since sem 2 was ending, everyone's starting to take class photos with teachers, since its the last lesson alr. so when i came down from bio, everyone was playing with their toy cars. ok some ppl were dismantling it :o. but anyway, it was still a pretty awesome gift before exams. too bad i din't get one.

oh yea and my wallet got put in the freezer. because i disrespected the 老大 by throwing my wallet at him, cos he needed coins for laundry. but what the heck, i tot they purposely didn't want to return my wallet when i couldn't find it in the morning. until jordan actually told me it was in the freezer and it was just a prank lol.

actually nothing happened to it even though it got put in the freezer overnight. the leather din't split, and the cards were intact, i think. i tested it by dropping my NRIC on the floor. then i realised that was pretty stupid, cos what if it really broke? then i have to call them up and say "oh i accidentally broke my card cos it got put in the freezer and i dropped it", and then get shot by the government. i should at least have tested with my other cards la, break also nvm de.

my phone keeps getting stolen too. i got like tortured back in the room cos of the o.o messages that were in my message history. ok i admit they are pretty o.o. and they kept teasing me over dinner also. u know what, i really shudn't be mentioning this here..

anyway, there was fire drill that night, after the fake one that happened at 12:30 last week i think. lol even got 'fireman team' in cluster 2B, but turns out its just a piece of paper stuck to the wall. was pretty sian compared to other fire drills actually, cos everyone was mugging chem, with their torchlights. ok fine yea im a slacker who din't bring my chem notes down with me.

fire drill used to be a fun thing. ok most ppl probably feel its retarded except for me lol. but last time it was fun probably cos everyone was like screaming (yea guys do that) and overreacting, like foo and shuen. and then we would start the 12A choir when we gathered downstairs lol. and when everyone gathered at the track, everyone start fooling around and talking funny stuff. it was so dead during wednesday, but can't help it, so close to exams liao.

we still walked up the stairs, and sung retarded songs to echo through the whole stairways haha. but wasn't as crazy as last time. jookee went to press the lift from 5th floor to 7th floor, probably pissing off alot of ppl. and we even took the lift at the 8th cos we got tired. oh god there's something called bad karma lol.

and then at night, suddenly foo came into our room with this really shocked face, and then he told us there were green worms all over his table. turns out there was a wasp nest, which he tried to take down, and then part of it came off and green worms dropped. and those green worms are paralysed worms where the wasps lay eggs in, and the larvae feed off from them. oh gawd disgusting...

foo took down the curtains, and threw it out of the room, which me and jookee happened to be standing at. damn that was darn scary haha. and then we unconsciously made so much noise that ms chua came out, and oh god, super awkward haha, cos it was like 12:30 in the morning v_v.

so yea ended up sleeping darn late that night, cos other than playing heli attack 3, we watched videos of some dude taking down a wasp nest with a vacuum cleaner. with a hell lot of grown wasps inside. luckily the nest, though it was pretty huge, din't have grown wasps in them. but it made everyone paranoid and check the curtains. and made jookee go 'what if' non-stop. and foo was pretty traumatized, so he slept in our room that day.

so that made a pretty crazy wednesday. gosh i really need to start sleeping earlier lolz. bye~~

i wished i had more time, but now sem 2 is almost over.

waseda's senrai festival

it was pretty amazing. it din't feel so jap-ish than natsumatsuri, but it was pretty impressive. there was just so much deco around. and every class made some sort of booth for their festival, with huge banners and all that.  and there were so many different types of booths.

it felt somewhat like the kanya festival in hyouka haha, except not so colourful, and not that pro la of cos. but still pretty amazing. why can't our school have this lol? ok fine it'll be kind of weird for a math and science school to do it, but damn, this is fun.

so yea it looked like this

with a hell lot of interesting booths especially at 2nd floor

anyway, reached school at about 12:30. so i tot still got quite abit of time, since 3 hours there would still be quite alot. but i ended waiting till 2 before i left school, cos jookee got delayed... badly. by his mum's cooking lolol.

and also, i got lost, because although it was 3 stops away, i had to walk 500m from the stop. prob was that i din't know which direction it was, but by some luck, i found my way there. so it was about 2:40 when i reached :o. the thing ends at 4:30. ouch.

when i first got there, i was pretty amazed. though i completely couldn't decide which booths to go to, since there were so many and the queues were darn long. damn i should have come earlier actually. it was too short....

met up with jookee not long after. he brought his cam, so unfortunately, all the photos are me, cos im obliged to do so... anyway, at first, we couldn't decide where to go, cos we din't have much time, so we went to some places without queues, like the places where they display some culture and history reports done by students.

i liked this one

the titles of some of them are like 'mission impossible' lol. and the descriptions haha. their english isn't that good, so the way they talk about how they dislike the smell and all that is pretty cute lol. and its pretty funny how we all just love eating durian, while the japs view it as a test of courage.

and look they have a seitokai room too, just like in anime lol

its pretty messy inside though. all the different deco stuff.

and then there was this anime otaku room haha. with quite abit of angel beats and k-on posters lol. jookee's dream place lol.

actually not much la, but still pretty ok. u can't expect AFA standard anyway.

and there was also a kanade figurine :D

ok the photo wasn't very well taken, but still, pin be jealous :P

oh god the next part im abit reluctant to post, but oh well...

kendo room :D. im obsessed with this kind of things lol. swinging around poles and such. finally get to hold a (fake) katana lol. but damn, when jookee took me from the front, i look so retardedly derp, like a kid given a toy sword (which is true la). i just can't look serious with a sword :o. i'll just burst out laughing lol.

so yea super fail back pose

oh gawd ._.

hmm but looks nice as dp maybe?


anyway, after that we started queuing for some ninja booth lol. before we entered, there was this really o.o riddle...


which the answer to was

:o so cold....

and lol the ninja booth was pretty lol-able. its like our mystery night that tunnel maze thing, except u don't have to crawl. except the last part. which was damn lol, cos that was the only way to get out haha. even though it was nothing much and really easy, still pretty fun anyway.

next we went to some booth with riddles and challenges. we failed darn bad ok lol. the dice roll, i was trying to cheat, but ended up getting the lowest number :o. there was also some can stacking thing, and another when u throw something to knock some paper squares off some box lid. aiya darn hard to explain.

and lol, the last booth was to dress as a samurai. walao jookee just kept laughing at me :o, but i still did it okay. lol samurai :o. i don't look any bit like one.


but even though our points was pretty pathetic, we earned a water balloon lol. the design is nice lor. but no it couldn't make pin jealous :/

we really wanted to go this booth where they have some drama and ur not supposed to laugh for five minutes. but the queue was so darn long D:  and it was so long they din't allow us to queue for it. so we queued for some cafe booth.

to be honest, it was quite scam money. but at least the students made the cakes and drinks themselves. though it was in styrofoam cup. hmmm. but it could be worth the $2, cos jookee got to see the jap girls in maid costumes lolz. but he din't dare to take photo of them lolol, even though they most probably would oblige if he asked.

so here's what he did

oh my god lolz. yea that's the best he could do haha. u can't even tell that she was wearing a maid costume. and she so obviously knew he was trying to take her anyway lolz.

and there was some time when a lot of 'mingweis', aka crossdressers, sprang out from the opposite room. there was quite a crowd trying to take photos lol.

anyway, we queued quite long lor, but in the end they had to close cos it was 4:30, and we din't get a chance to go in. damn... so we had nothing else to do but go back out. went to visit the canteen

the canteen was darn nice and big. and there was air-con too. with student workers. no fair...

but ya the canteen also was closing. so i guess we really din't have a choice but to go back.

so yea it was fun, but pretty short. should have come much earlier, sigh. they had more events earlier in the morning too, but by 3 all of them ended. well, there's always next year ba lol.

ya im mental to be posting this at 2:30 am :o. well exams is in a week, but lol im still downloading even more songs, and just bought a jap conversation book on saturday. oh gosh lolz.

and yea, we are still doing retarded stuff haha. like toasting and burning bread in the room /o\. and throwing it out lol. it flies really amazingly well, surprisingly. and jiamin asking me to do different things to help him purge.  so yea even though exams are coming, it still pretty fun lol. i know i shud be more serious, but haha no i can't hehe.

ok nothing else le. bye~~

no matter how sian it might seem at first, i never regret to try new things out :D

why we used to hang out so much

ok this din't come from me, it was just what i heard. and its not going to have any drastic change on me or anything, just that i found it made alot of sense and it was interesting to think about. have u wondered why did we go out so much last time?

can u remember what it was like last time we used to play soccer almost everyday? all the epic fails and hitting the posts and everyone dying from laughter. i have a rough memory of what it was like, though there's probably alot i have forgotten. but i bet it's in my blog somewhere.

it was back then when we were all much lousier then now. i shall list some examples. how we always tried to bully hema :P, how huang and jiamin always zam the ball high in the air, how wong and chee always comes late cause of bridge but always end up coming.

and then after everything, we'd all just lie on the track, exhausted. play cards and talk until it was about 7pm. din't think about this, but what if someone have been watching us from, let's say hostel? they probably couldn't have understood what fun it was unless they experienced it themselves.

and no offense, but do u remember the times when it was always pin vs daryl? pin always keeps wanting to go home, while daryl always tried to salvage certain ppl who are bound to stay. come to think about it, it's actually quite hilarious lolz.

and there was always a few of us who wanted to play no matter what. and ppl like wong and chee, stuck in the middle, and ending up playing bridge. but in the end when we decided to play soccer, we din't regret. even though it means leaving school at 7 every friday.

yea i know this doesn't really sound like me, cos they weren't from me lol. but how did all of us just fit in like this, despite from being in so many different classes? there were many clicks that just broke off from year 2 to year 3, but the ex-07 one just endured. its actually quite amazing.

all of this was due to chance. and im really glad i was so lucky to just happen to fit in this group of ppl just like that. i don't exactly know how it happened, but when i first joined, everyone found me irritating or something. then it just happened, i just fit it and everyone got used to it. its like magic, i can't really explain.

maybe its cause all of us always went home together. as in not everyone was in the same direction, but most ppl took bus to commonwealth, and its usually just chee and wong (and hema) who went the other way. where we were always trying to help chee and wong shake off hema haha. i dunno why i was so against hema last time, but it was fun :P

so when our lessons ended, we were always waiting for ppl from other classes. and when we met up, somehow we were always trying to find something to do, because we felt it would just be boring to go home. i dunno how that concept came to me, but it did. and thus we always talked about playing soccer or bridge.

i used to be against bridge, cos maybe at that time all i wanted was to play soccer. but after that i realised that no matter what we did, we always did it together, and i changed towards wanting to spend more time with u guys. it just happened. like magic.

i guess as we grow up, this gets harder and harder to achieve. we used to just do whatever we want? why? because why not was the reason. i just joined wanting to have fun, not really caring that it was awkward. that ppl din't really like me at first. i was always trying to play ppl's iphones :P, and i din't think at that time that ppl felt it irritating. but slowly, ppl just got used to this. and then we became friends.

nowadays its harder cos everyone has matured. but it'll be nice to remember those times again. maybe next year the conditions would be right again. we would always be trying to look for each other after breaks, i hope. and not wanting to go home so fast cos that would be boring. and being able to see who's playing just by looking out from our classes too. sure, it won't be the same, but if it really do happens, that be really nice.

i know many things have changed, so there are more things to consider now. yea the present is more important now. new friends have become important too, and we can't just think about the past, cos we need to move on. but there could be a guilt forming, because last time we were somewhat inseparable. that its sad for it just to end like that.

it can’t be helped, cos in the end, everyone goes separate ways. its an inevitable fact, that we make more friends and lose friends. we have to continue with what is present, the new ones. but its ok actually. we just need to live in the present, but treasure the past memories. why we were so happy at that point of time, its important too. even though we may not be together in the future. 

maybe if we looked it in another way, there's nothing to feel guilty or regret about. because we don't have to compare what it's like now and last time. both are awesome in their own way.

maybe im saying this because im worried i won't be able to see u guys in the future. im not sure how certain i am, but i can feel this strong desire to go to japan. im not transforming my whole life now, but im generally pushing myself in that direction, and trusting that no matter what happens, we would all adapt and find something we really want.

ideally i would end up in japan, but i could be doing something else i feel would be really awesome as well. and thus i haven't given any more serious thought about the future. i just trust that no mater what happens, we'll all find a way somehow. and thus i think its okay to just pursue what we want now. because in the end, even if its unexpected, it will all work out.

ok going out for coffee and haircut(damn) soon. bye~~

not going to do anything drastic, but i shall try harder

last cluster celebration

this week feels like its passing really fast. its like friday already. maybe cause there was a few things to study for this week. i guess studying makes ur time feel really short because u don't do other things.

i kind of don't like the concept of surviving today for the next day, and having to prepare for the day after the next. its quite sian. but i guess that's what its going to become as we approach the exams. not saying that the week hasn't been fun, just that it felt really short and eventless.

today was pretty interesting though. lessons were of course very sian la. but today, kind of spent more time with people in my class and cluster. and then pe lesson was quite fun too, though it was super hot >.<. after dinner, went to shop for stuff for the cluster celebration, and then we had it after that la. now that i typed it, it doesn't feel like much actually...

but anyway, while travelling there, i made a really stupid bet with jm that might cause me a hell lot of trouble next time >.<. about the bus service not being disrupted, but it turned out it actually did. gah enough about that.

anyway, we went there to shop for drinks and also bought other stuff as well la. and also we wanted to get lao ban tao huey because we just learned of its existence just recently, and that stuff is awesome, im telling u. i never knew it was called lao ban tau huey until recently though. but damned it was closed. so yea...

cluster celebration started at 10. our effort of spending almost exactly $220, buying all the gifts and spamming drumlets :D. it was good heheh. i tried to insulate it cos we got it earlier, but the food kind of turned cold though. wished it was hotter.

no one mentioned anything about the birthdays though, so i had to door-to-door give them their presents. i realise i haven't revealed what the presents are yet, except loo's laces. so basically we got shuen and issac nerf guns (more like 小さい pistols), because it feels right to buy them that. we got zheng wei a madoka figurine, which i think he likes a lot.

then for kevin, we din't really know, so we got this lego-like thing that forms an electric guitar. and got a panda one for png too. though he preferred it if we got him a pokemon toy, which we were going to get at first. damn should have bought that piplup. foo got a glaceon. and pin got the angel beat handphone strap. turned out he loves it now, and he found a way to attach it to his handphone. it looks darn good lol.

so anyway, i kind of acted like a santa claus with my plastic bag of presents lol. but hey it was so worth the time shopping for presents that they would like haha. and it was much cheaper than expected. as long as they like the present, the price doesn't matter. i forgot to take off the price tags though, damn...

anyway, nothing much else, other than my juggling has improved, and i got a pair of socks thrown out of the window.... ok bye ^^.

what does it take to make just a friend become a close friend?

presents ^^

yesterday i went out for whole day lolz. din't actually think i'd actually go out to get the presents for cluster ppl, but i did :D. anyway, pin went to somerset to take photos for his silence theme. so yea i tagged along and might as well get my presents on the way.

so we reached somerset at abt 2, and then we walked around taking photos because jookee wasn't there yet. can't remember much, but basically there was one part where we just took the escalators in orchard central from first floor all the way to 11th floor... actually when it got higher, i realised i din't dare to let go and just stand there. so brave right :/

after that pin was kind of done with photo taking, so we went to buy presents. met jookee at OG. we spent forever to buy the first present, which was laces for loo, then after that we went to the toy section. din't expect to buy the rest of the presents there lol. i guess guys play with toys too :P

anyway, it was much cheaper than expected. was less than $10 for each person, when i actually wanted to spend more on presents instead of the food. cos its nerf guns, and pokemon figurines, and stuff... but i think they'll like it :D. feels more fun than just buying arbitrary gifts that they won't use.

so after that we decide that we wanted to buy pin a hyouka album, which is not cheap btw. so we went all the way to HMV, only to realise it wasn't there. and we wasted time there, cos jookee ended up playing the ps-vita there while we just walked around testing the earphones and headphones..

anyway, we ended up going to this shop with some anime stuff. though we spent like forever deciding on what to buy since pin doesn't know half of those that are up there. was saying it was impossible to find something with toradora, but turned out there actually was, some mouse pad and mouse cover. too bad the pictures were abit ahem, so we din't get it.

then in the end we ended up getting distracted and looking at dm cards, so when we saw the angel beats handphone strap, we just hecked it and bought it lolz. even though he can't really use it. and it was twelve dollars lolz. but whatever la i think it'll look nice lol.

so ya it was $70 in total, which means we got $130 for pizza :D. i took forever to post this, i dunno why. ok bye.

the best thing to do when u get lost is to just keep doing what u've always been doing

holidays ending already...

it wasn't too bad la. monday and thursday was really fun. and i fell in love with another anime :D. i also added a lot of new songs liao. can't believe its only been five days, cos i have listened to them so many times :o

anyway, shan't talk too much abt yesterday, except it was ARP presentation which although din't seem very good, after ms ng talked to us, i felt much more confident. and also at the end of the day, even though it din't go very well, i feel much more confident still. reached home at abt 7 plus. fell asleep really early, cos i was reading something really boring... so yea i feel kinda refreshed today heheh.

anyway, i read something really interesting. basically what it was trying to say was: don't let other ppl sway ur feelings about the anime u love, because everyone has different views about anime. not everyone can understand why you like it so much. also, don't try to force ur anime on other ppl. it'll just make u feel pissed or sad why other ppl can't appreciate what u like so much. let them acquire it if they want to.

^ so damnnned truee.

wasted so much correction tape today lolz. stupid drawings -.-. recently, i've become really overdetailed in doing certain things. this is all cos of someone's influence... /o\. anyway, its kind of a waste that those few things that i really spent time on don't turn out very good. as in sometimes, on certain things, i suddenly feel very (i can't use motivated, but a feeling similar to that, something like not minding how much work it takes) to just work on it.

however, these things that i do usually are not exactly pointless, but as in no matter how i work on it, it wouldn't be able to help much. i don't exactly feel upset about this, but i find it such a waste that i get so "motivated" to do these things, but not "motivated" to do things that would actually help. but gah, i shud be proud of these useless things i do anyway lolz :P.

ok la enough about this liao. bye~~

there's just always some really naive reason why i spend so much time doing these things

removed

i had to take down the previous post. orders from above :P. i din't see what was wrong but orders are orders /o\.

anyway, haiz, class outing got cancelled. unless 4 ppl still wanted to go out. im somewhat disappointed, cos i stuck all the way until 5 ppl were left, than cancelled it. but at least now i have time after the presentation tmr. and there's still quite alot of time after exams to go out right? so ok, at least i tried..

i don't know whether ppl who couldn't go were just saying things to make me feel better, or they genuinely wanted to go, and i also don't know whether ppl were paiseh to post anything on the class page, cos it seemed like i was talking to myself. even the sms-es too. but i don't feel angry or anything la. since i pushed stuff that i could do away to make time for it, so that's not too bad.

din't do anything today lol. i tried doing physics but blah, i tot it was hard. oh god... and i got distracted by anime, though i ended playing dm most of the time -.-. other than that i cut up a cardboard with a knife :P. cos it was too hard to cut it with a scissors. literally. it's for ARP la, and it turned out pretty crude, but oh well.

ok boring post lolz. gonna watch yuru yuri. omg i actually think the OP and ED are worth listening too, so i don't skip them lol. ok bye~~

well, there's always another time, right?

cooking meatballs :D

went to school yesterday to meet ms ng for our ARP. actually not much la, just getting the forms ready. met pin at simei, and then we watched yuru yuri on the train. i can't say its stupid, cos i actually find it damn entertaining :D.

we met jookee, who happened to go to school for chem remedial but never took it lol. so after our meeting, we went back to hostel. since everyone's reason was "take things", he had to put down "lol". just for us to enter, search both music rooms, then go back out :O.

and then we wasted like twenty minutes in the office thinking of a name. jookee had to suggest all sorts of random names and then in the end we went back to the original name lolz. is darn retarded ok, cos the security guard and seeu kun were there, and they were like laughing at us lolz.

anyway, for certain reasons, we met jiamin much later than expected for lunch. walao his house the coffeeshop all so cheap and good, just that the stingray shop was closed. but the hokkien mee and cai dao gui is darn good.

after that, jookee left, so me, pin and jm travelled all the way to tampines. i din't even know what they were doing then, just thought of following anyway. turns out they were meeting andreea and they were going to cook at pin's house. andreea got scammed by the pen sellers, like the time when our cluster went to kushinbo. but that time those guys got trolled back la haha. anyway, they passed him a belated birthday present, which was a hat, but it kind of looked hmm...

anyway, we went to shop. jiamin was like pressuring me to buy the steaks, but he refused to follow me. so since this is the first time i bought steak, i happily chose two pieces of striploin, thinking they were going to be like $3 each. then i realised it was $3 per 100g. goodjob. fourteen bucks lolz.

so altogether the food costed $40. then it occurred to me that even though my father so generously gave me $50 this week, i might not have enough for my class outing T-T.

we reached his house at about five i think. only started cooking much later, cos we were all lying down in his room doing nothing and talking about his medals and all the primary school stuff. anyway, i got the saigang job again of peeling potatoes, but i actually quite like the job lolz.

basically they chopped onions, and wanted to put it in the meatballs, but the chunks of onions were darn big, so the meatballs were too. then they put cheese in the interior, and flour on the outside to make it crispier after frying. so we were super impressed when we tasted the first completed meatball. it was darn good, since it took like one and a half hours to cook.

the mashed potatoes were quite good cos of the butter, but it got screwed up by the nutmeg pin put in. and then we also had cheese sausages, which was standard good stuff. so overall, the meal was darn gooood for something we cooked ourselves.

after that, we decided to cook the steak as well, since it was jiamin's first time eating steak. it actually wasn't that hard le. just add oil, then put the meat there, and kind of estimate when its brown enough, then flip it and repeat. but its too ex to just experiment like that lolz.

it tasted so much better than expected though haha. but wow seriously we din't expect something we cooked to taste so darn good. it was pretty pinkish, and it tasted somewhat between medium rare and medium well. and it was relatively juicy. i think even pin's dad, who is some expert at steak, thinks its not bad. success :D.

i think i kind of enjoy cooking, so i was quite on heheh. i was overly obsessed with onions though, like pin's maid said. im thinking of learning how to cook all the jap food next time if i have to live there. start off with like something small like onigiri or oyakodon. those are simple and heavenly :D.

but yea, anyways, apparently what happens that day stays among us, so i can't say anything else le. it was fun :D. or i get my head ripped off on monday :P.

today i also went out awhile to eat popeyes for lunch >.<. gg my health is at stake here, two days of junk lolz. after that we shopped for things to make sushi with. should have went to helped though. but i was asleep or using comp, and by the time i went down it was done.

but damn my holiday time is seriously short. but i realise i can watch anime anytime la. in sch even, cos i don't spam that much anyway. i need to finish up all the other stuff. stuffffff. i don't feel like i have nothing to do anymore. plus i decided im gonna pick up alot of stuff next year. so that i'll never feel bored again :D

ok nothing to say liao. bye ~~

term 3 ends..

yesterday's teacher's day celebration was quite interesting. snacks for breakfast wasn't a very healthy idea though. it was really awkward at first, cos we din't really have much to say to dewey. he was just chatting with some of us and the rest of just listened and ate snacks.

the performance was quite ok, though the guess the teacher they din't make it more interesting like the other years. and they din't show the films of the teacher doing funny stuff that yawen video-ed. i dunno why though, it was really funny.

ended up lazing in the room lolz. it was the last day of term, so had to pack a lot of stuff >.<. darn heavy man. pin left early to meet his pri sch friends, so me and jm just went out to macs to eat. with a lot of hongsters there lololz. ok la not really that bad la. and in the end i din't go back to my sch, cos it would be really troublesome to bring so much weight there, only to get kicked out by the security guard if i went there.

i really wanted to go though, but it was really inconvenient. haiz but if i like that, i don't even know whether i would visit next year. i want to see my primary sch again though. hopefully next year got a much better time to visit, unlike this year last day of term.

today i could have gone expo with jookee for some fair, but i din't have money left, and actually, i still don't know enough yet to actually have much to do there. so fine la im staying at home. probably following my mum somewhere later.

i realised its actually very boring for my parents in the weekend. unlike us, they don't really have something to spent their whole free day on. they don't watch anime or play games like us, plus they're probably not interested in that anyway. so no wonder they keep wanting to jio me go out, but sometimes i don't feel like it lolz. plus going out too much is kind of expensive for them, so they also don't do it often, except maybe just go drink coffee or visit grandparents.

so in conclusion, they are really bored, plus they can't really go out all the time. and i don't really feel like trying to introduce them to anything cos they probably aren't interested. and then sometimes i become all douchey when i have too much free time, but then actually i realised they're just bored, plus there ain't really much wrong for them to just keep entering my room to see what im doing. so i shud at least try not to dismiss anything they suggest to do. anyway i have a whole holiday to do what im doing right now anyway.

anyway, term 3 just ended. it was just 70 days actually, but woa the change was drastic. much closer to alot of people now, plus i finally feel so much better. i think i changed to be completely honest with myself, stop pretending to do other things, accept the fact i lost interest in something. so this term was a really awesome and long one. felt so different from my life before.

i feel kinda sad that hostel life is kind of ending soon. i really hope to still be able to meet up with all of them after school next year. cos every year i become more outgoing, interact with friends much more, but next year it'll probably decrease cos there won't be hostel anymore.

usually i don't like term breaks, because i find there's still enough time for me to do my stuff in school, plus i get to see friends everyday, and new things happen everyday instead of me just repeating what i do for the whole break. but i feel kinda relieved for having this break anyway. i got quite alot of jap stuff to do  to do these holidays i realised. downloaded a lot of music and anime. finally able to do this stuff myself now haha.

plus one week gives me quite a bit of time to work out my stuff. i realised i have been thinking alot about stuff this term. one week shud give me abit of relief. that doesn't mean i don't want to go back to school though. but at least i think this break i won't feel as sian as all the other breaks i had last time. so this is fine too :)

ok la nothing much left to say le. bye~~

one week to sort out all i have been thinking and feeling. then i hope when i come back, everything becomes much better again :D

cooking dinner in hostel

thursday was pretty fun. went out to eat after sports day with jm, pin, jookee and loo. on the bus ride to harbourfont, we kind of formed some gang lolz. with some super random gang sign XD. jiamin was the 'ah dua' of the gang, and the rest of us were like xiong di's. so if any of us disobeyed, the rest are supposed to 'ba ta gan diao' /o\.

anyway, firstly we ate some super sinful lunch. 2 hao jians + 2 hokkien mee + 10 pratas. the lao da was feeling very generous that day, so he 'treated' everyone. gah money burn from $50 -> $10 T-T. and the rest of us were trying to 'gan diao' each other. and exchanging gangster words all around the table :O

after that we walked over to giant to buy groceries. might as well, since we travelled so far just to eat. lolz i was being extra hongster that day, doing a lot of retarded stuff. kind of scary what a bit of (fake) power can change me :P. and recently, i can't help myself from swearing lolz. sometimes i mean to say 'freak', like what the freak, but then it comes out different. must be due to somebody's influence lolz.

grocery shopping for our beef stew dinner was pretty fun. i dunno how much time they wasted on selecting meat though lolz. and then after buying everything, they decided to buy those ice sticks like those in the canteen. cos it was 10 for $1 o.o. so we spent about $26 in total...

anyway, came back and played soccer until 9, then we went back. din't really start cooking until 10:00 lolz. had to cut up the ingredients first. we failed at cutting apparently. they cried chopping up onions. so foo had to do it for them (and put his face directly in front of the onions >.<). then garlic pin refused to cut it to small pieces, so cyrus and issac had to help us. and we also tried to skin the carrot without a peeler. lucky we found a rather fast way to do it, or else we had to do it toradora style :P

so at first, they put oil into the pan without first drying it :o. so a hell lot of steam got released. and oil spilled everywhere. and alot of screaming in the kitchen XD. 11th floor probably wondering what the hecks going on upstairs :P. 

but it kind of smelled good when they added the onions in, cos the whole kitchen got infused with the smell of onions. and then they took out the extra onions since the pot would be too full if they put everything. actually the onions alone taste quite good by itself lolz. was eating half of the excess onions :D. they taste awshum ok...

after that they just chucked liquid beef stew and potato in :O. looks quite scary. but after that it actually cooked lolz. just that the lid we used was bigger than the pot, so recondensed 'stew vapour' kept spilling all over the cooking area... but hey it worked! :D.

only finished cooking at abt 12 am lolz. and that's our dinner btw. alot of ppl wanted to steal some though, but we din't really share it except to those who came out of their rooms to try it. it was damn gooooood. love the onions especially. after that we realised it wasn't filling enough, so we cooked angel's hair and used the sauce of the stew. and some of them were eating uncooked spaghetti again -.-

there was very little stew left, so we added prego to the pasta. then we realised we kind of wasted our time cooking so much. next time just cook pasta with prego and beef stew and add onions then darn good liao lolz. felt so full after that. and really sinful lolz. all of us usually complaining about getting cancer, but we still eat it anyway :P.  but it was quite fun cooking (cleaning for me lolz) anyway :D

ok that's about all ba. bye :D ~~

actually it feels kinda good to take a break like this too.