last post of the year

it's this time of the year again lol.

so ya i feel like my personality has changed quite abit from last year. of course, i'm still this dumb, forgetful and annoying idiot (i'm sure many ppl have other things to add lol), yet somehow still managed to make a few good friends haha, and ya that will probably not ever change.

but ya i feel like i've become much more relaxed toward life, less uptight or dramatic or stressed, and it does feel quite good, though in some sense i'm like ignoring some greater part of life that someday i have to face. i definitely was lazier this year haha, partially due to much shorter school days (many might disagree). i feel like i've become more retarded, maybe cos i enjoy the responses i get from being retarded haha. somehow i'm laughing all this off, even though sometimes i realise that i shouldn't keep being such a retard either.

anyway, this year has been great actually. i've feel like i've let off some deadweight that has been holding me back and experienced lots of fun moments. lots and lots. i probably don't remember half of them, but i know there where plenty of moments where i laughed so hard my stomach hurt, and i think i caused many many occasions of public nuisance. u know those kind like u see and go 'who is this retard', but when ur actually involved everything seems understandable lol.

i feel the need to recap haha, even though i dont want to make it seem like certain events had more weightage than others. and also cos i end up listing so many things :0

anyway at the start of the year, i had many fun moments with my class, and with 05 too, cos for some reason i feel so familiar with them and they treat me nicely (i think). some of us initiated weekly rm, which lasted half a year, and it was quite fun when it lasted, though we ran out of ideas or din't act on them. either way, at least we tried to get it to happen.

got obsessed with mock karuta for awhile. shan't elaborate cos it sounded dumb to everyone except the few of us who played, or maybe only i dont think its dumb haha. had some moments practicing for talent search too lol. hardcore going to all sorts of studios to practice. it was quite interesting, but expensive, and ya i feel bad for doing the least work :0. then i had chalets, and my sep. it wasn't as amazing as i was hyped for, all that jap cramming and planning and thinking of what to buy back when in the end i din't get the time to do so. but looking back it was quite enjoyable and memorable.

the second half of the year was pretty damn free, or at least it felt like. cos i had so many outings omg. i felt like i went out more this year then the rest of my life combined. eating all sorts of stuff, buffets and whatnot. having outings to play soccer, or playing cards for the whole day, or only mahjong, shingeki, halo, making takoyaki, sleepovers, bbqs and so on. especially after exams ended. we hanged out so often that i din't feel like i graduated. we still hang out often actually.

but ya, we graduated, though to me it doesn't feel like a drastic change has occurred, like i thought it would when i was still in school. it does feel like there's a whole long list of history behind us though, and there were many moments where we would talk about epic fails that happened last time. there's quite a few people that i've come to know, but still the same bunch that somehow managed to stick together cos they are the most fun ppl to hang out with haha.

i wish i could somehow keep all the good memories though it is very easy to forget cos we keep making new ones. like my grad trip lol. there were lots of new experiences and stuff to remember, but in the end i din't feel like i've gone at all after i came back and had one outing. not that the trip was not amazing by itself, but i feel like i've already returned to normal cos i laughed so much yesterday. i do hope that things could stay this way, though ns and no school will probably make it much harder to keep in contact.

anyway, enough recap. now that there's no more school i kinda need to keep myself occupied i guess, in some sort of productive way. work probably is one, but at this moment now i feel like i want to try becoming serious about something that i really like to do.

i haven't given this much thought, but recently i've seen many things, like young ppl being able to do all sorts of amazing things. even the ppl in nus high, i think many of them have all sorts of hackz talents (some have multiple) like drawing, cooking, photog, performing music, computer stuff, etc etc. and then i realise im not so young anymore (even though i look like a 7 year old lol).

some ppl may compliment me occasionally, but really, i don't feel like i have anything much special about me, and actually it feels like people my age are supposed to be able to do like lots of things. i'm somewhat near my prime after all. i should be able to do much more after all tskkkk. like looking my age? or be at least decently fit like guys my age? earning money? thinking about society and stuff? idk actually, but i guess im not really prepared or bothered for some reason.

anyway, i think i know what i could possibly try getting better at. like anime. other than watching, i love the songs. i think i can imagine the melody better than when i actually listen to the thing haha. and i like the whole package in general haha. i could work on my japanese. or maybe get better at playing a certain instrument. i actually like each one of them, drums, piano, guitar. i'd like to sing of course, but i'm pretty damn amateur. but it was somewhat my dream to make some sort of anime band during uni haha. i know i'll be pretty damn satisfied if i could achieve that

i'm also pretty into games, cos i like doing all sorts of guai-lan things. ya im an addict and all sorts too lol, though even though i play so much (ok maybe not as much as i thought), i feel like im one of the noobest players out there lol. not comparing to the world of course, but even amongst ppl i know, im pretty scrub haha. even still, i think i could be interested in coding and stuff, or coming up with a game. im pretty excited about future gaming technology actually, virtual reality, holograms, all that cool stuff. i was actually thinking i don't mind working in that field, even though it sounds kinda risky haha.

the only thing that's stopping me is my laziness and procrastination though. frankly, i kinda want to get good at this things without putting in the effort, but that's not fair to those who do. i guess its cos i don't persevere long enough to get decently good, so i'm still pretty amateur in all of them.

but its abit demoralizing when u play for hours to try to play an anime song transcription but fail so bad. spam a jap app so i got all sorts of vocab memorized but still not really know how to respond to real life situations. thinking up drum beats but not knowing what to do when u actually get the chance. or coding, but facing all sorts of bugs.

so i hope that now that im free-er, i can get the motivation to put in the effort haha. i know i have an interest in these things so i should go all out. after all, i want to try to be at least able to do something a little bit special. probably some sort of inner desire haha. i guess that's as close to a new year's resolution as i can get lol.

k i think i've wrote more than enough already haha. it's one of the rare few times i feel like i've managed to express what im thinking so im pretty satisfied too heheh. so yea its one and a half hours before the new year. i should go watch the tv now. so yea. see u guys next year :D ~~

japan in 17 days

came back from japan today, and wow it has been a blast. there were many fun moments, rush moments, yolo-ing, and also torturous moments. but one thing's for sure, it was pretty damn eventful and memorable haha.

i guess i won't be going through the details in here, it would seriously take forever. each day would be the length of the posts i make, so multiply by 17, i won't be able to finish writing them either lol. so ya this post would be a summary of the stuff we did there. a long one i think lol.

we started off at kyoto, at first just me, jm and wong, all hyped up about the trip. we had our first onigiri in the train station after getting off the airport, and woa we had so much feels, and it made us all high and happy. then after that we roamed around kyoto, which was somewhat familiar, yet the experience of walking there alone without teachers or parents or anyone to guide us was somewhat interesting. met up with the rest at the end of the day after exploring shijo and gion by ourselves, and for the first few days, we probably were the number one public nuisance in japan lol.

in kyoto, we met up with our buddies for a dinner, heard some kinda -ahem- interesting stuff, then went to the arcade and took some super embarassing purikara (the machines that take those photos). yea the rest will kill me if i upload it anywhere haha.

after leaving kyoto, we went to osaka, and for this first half of the trip, everyday was pretty hiong. we woke up early, took bullet trains to other districts, and return back to the hotel quite late every night.

our first half of the trip was mainly sightseeing, taking all sorts of retarded photos, falling behind the itenerary and ended up cancelling many things. and there was lots of failing, arguing, teasing each other (lots of new jokes appear cos of the plenty of fails that happened), gaying, going into all sorts of shops, having suppers (with alchohol and other kinds of stuff) haha. was kinda tiring but lots of fun.

just to give an idea on what the days were like: on the last day in osaka, we went to hiroshima, which was all the way west (1.5hrs bullet train from osaka), saw deer, get attacked by deer, met a tsun-deer, went to a famous place to get lunch which ended up being closed, ate good food anyway, ate oysters (1kg for 1000 yen) for dinner, ended up missing the second last bullet train that we thought was the last and gave us a fright of our lives, reached back hotel at 12 am. ok that was a pretty extreme day haha, and wtf, so much yolo a day i was worried we would not survive the trip lol.


for the next half of our trip, we left for tokyo, and this was where our trip changed from sightseeing to almost purely shopping, and actually more like waiting for others to finish shopping lol. and yea there was something really unhygienic about those oysters we ate in hiroshima that for the first 3 days of tokyo, each one of us got owned by either vomitting or diarhea, or both lol.

during that time it was kinda sian, or more like really sian, cos those who felt well enough to go out got tired really quickly, we had to take all sorts of toilet breaks, food suddenly became not appetizing, and alot of time got wasted. for me i din't exactly miss out much, though the day i went down i vomitted 4-5 times, those really painful ones where nothing came out. such that the next day when i laughed my diaphragm felt painful haha. but yea when we all finally recovered, all the jokes and teasing came back double, and we were also doubly high and stuff. in some sense, it was quite an experience lol.

we resumed our itenerary, but turns out that no matter which city in tokyo we go, we barely did anything else but look for more anime stuff to buy lol. we went to like akiba 3 to 4 times until we actually got sian of it. and we also blew alot of money haha. jm and zhengwei blew on gundams and other huge stuff, while pin and jookee kinda spammed albums, even though they had the songs. i din't really buy much, cos i cleared most of my stuff before reaching tokyo, but even still i succumb to seemingly cheap temptations, like 400 yen figmas, 100 yen mangas, 2000+ yen nendos.

i guess the day with the most sightseeing in tokyo was odaiba, which was essentially the last day for the three going back one day earlier. it was this really cool island where everything seemed new and nicely arranged, and there din't seem to be any old streets or temple-ish kind of places. it's like academy city in railgun haha, though a better way to describe it is probably shin-japan haha. we din't exactly do much there, but it was really pretty, we did a bit of railgun pilgrimage, played at an arcade which jookee won some gigantic alpaca, went to see a gigantic gundam.

then at the end of the day, we had some pretty ingenious christmas celebration, cos jookee seemed kinda disappointed we din't have any christmas mood at all. so yea we had a christmas tree made out of onigiri, cake, some wine that zhengwei bought, and 50 pieces of karaage. cos we were suicidal and all. after eating like half the pack, i felt like never eating fried chicken again lol. but it was actually quite a fun christmas celebration after all. much crazy and high. among all the other supper celebrations that we occasionally had haha.

all in all, it was pretty damn fudged up, but fun, sometimes troublesome, sometimes unexpectedly crazy. quite a cool grad trip i've had haha. i definitely have much more to tell, but that's probably going to be done in person heheh. k la that's all for now. see u guys soon :D

before the trip

less than 24 hours to the trip of my life. feeling all sorts of nervousness and excitement haha. i rushed packing today also, but in the end i think im quite well prepared haha. just worried about whether i can handle the cold over there, and not get myself into trouble :P

anyway, i thought of making a post just before the trip cos i feel like alot of things will be different when i come back. i have been quite lazy + slack recently haha, can't even be bothered to make blog posts even though i have so much time. but i better make this one, cos i want to remember how awesome november was for me haha :D

for one, i somehow graduated, which somehow just came and went. i thought i'd be more emotionally attached, but after spending time with the gang, i realised that hmm, it din't really feel like i won't be seeing them again.

maybe i got too used to being able to slack around like this haha. but yea, we had alot of outings during november, and it felt really great. the week before prom, we were damn hardcore. played soccer for 10 hours, mahjong for 8 hours, and cards for 8 hours for that whole week alone haha. i was shag everyday i went home, but it was well worth it :D

then prom week. wasn't as fun for me as the pics suggest, but wow the pics are really good, and somehow it was also quite memorable, + the after party we had after that. played games, snacked on chips, drank alchohol, and watched a damn good movie called the millers. idk why i like it so much haha. ya know what im sayin'?

then after that i discovered the shingeki game, and somehow managed to spread it to wong, chee and junwei, and we played like nuts for one week haha. even had a combined shingeki + mahjong outing. and also went to board games cafe with daryl, chee seng and others haha. with junwei there's always his "oh yea, jizz jizz" haha. after that i remember we went to justacia and heard about huang's damn funny 'love story'. damn good la, laugh until my stomach hurt :D

last week, i went to pin's house twice lol. one was to play mahjong (again) and make takoyaki, with like wong and junwei making all sorts of jokes about balls. second time was to cook really good lasagna, which i dint really help much, more like i was playing piano and wii heheh.

there was also my probably last class outing. it was pretty memorable actually, since with daryl's help, i ended up getting the film roll thing from ikea, choosing and printing the photos as gifts for the scholars. its damn nice when put up haha. the whole class should have got one, but only the scholars got.

last minute planning of bbq also, like the day before night time i started preparing. have to thank my dad haha, since he helped me got all the food. was damn successful, the bbq. the satays and fishes were damn nice, and then somehow we managed to hide the gifts from the scholars, which they had no clue about until the end of the bbq haha. after that we all dilly dallied and rush for the bus before parting for the last time. it was quite memorable, really.

woa not bad ur still here after reading through so much. yea all my memories that i want to keep, before going for this trip and forgetting all of them. i decided to bring a diary heheh, since train rides will have nothing to do. i think i will blog about the trip, though no guarantees lol.

in some sense i feel like im leaving behind something, and when i come back, i feel like things might change and i wont be seeing much of u guys again D:. but not until i pass u guys ur souvenirs :P. i guess i will really miss u guys when the time comes (february ns D:).

k anyway its about 5 hours before i go off to the airport. i'll miss you guys haha. bye ~~