chicken fight :D

really glad i stayed back today. ended up doing alot of fun, random stuff instead of going home alone.

so today, me, jookee and whoever else who wanted to go intended to go to NUS for the jap festival thing there, which apparently claire's band was also performing in. then we realised we got the dates wrong D:. wasn't wed-fri, but it was mon-wed. so that means we missed the last day when we went to kian wee's house yesterday D:. so ended up i have nothing to do today lol.

so ya i didn't want to go home so early, but most ppl left alr. left like daryl, kian wee and nicole, cos they had physics make-up. went to wait in their class, but ended up sleeping lol. when i woke up at like 3:30 they still haven't came back, so i tot they all went home alr and i stayed back for nothing :/

just as i was about to leave school at back gate with chee seng, we saw them at the fitness corner. probably training pull-ups i guess, but then in the end we ended up doing random stuff and chicken fight haha. have no idea why its called that, but its this game from running man where u hop with one leg and hold up ur other leg and try to knock each other down.

was really epic, especially the team battle, where me, daryl and chee seng all surround and ganged kian wee. daryl was darn pro, cos he kept charging forward with his knee, so we were getting constantly knocked backwards and can't move anywhere except try to escape lol. even when we did a 3 v 1 we still lost :0. after everyone was like darn tired but it was really fun. after that we all went back together after slacking in the canteen for awhile, like old times.

so yea we realised that almost all of us are free on thursdays, so its like one of the best time slots to do our running man idea thing, like just try it out for fun. i think we just need to form a core team of like 6 to 7 ppl, then occasionally if ppl want join they can. it'll be epic if like adrian plays or something lol.

ok la that's it for now. bye ~~

its difficult for me to let loose with my class, because i don't really feel included, but i'll try my best to join in

reaching home so late

sorry i haven't posted in quite awhile. the last week has been really fun, did loads of things. came home past 8 pm for four days last week :0 (reached home at 11 on friday >.<). troubles of staying in the east :/ and yea it felt much longer than one week that i last posted actually. shall just mention a few things ba.

thursday had a really fun outing at boon chong's house trying to do self-made pasta. was slacking so much at first lol, until i got addicted to flattening the dough with a rolling pin lol. and quite retarded heheh, spent so much time just rolling. in the end most of the noodles turned out like ban mian instead of spaghetti cos it was so thick. the sauce was really good though, and so were the spicy sausages.

after that we just sat there for quite awhile. the wind at his 4th floor is really amazing. we played murderer for quite awhile, and it was really epic cos there was aris and anh, and then there was nicole and kian wee who were like opening their eyes darn big. and i kept getting killed cos i talked too much haha. fun game.

after clearing up, we kinda stayed awhile longer. was some random piano and guitar playing session, and kian wee going around poking ppl >.<. then after awhile, we all realised that adrian disappeared. omg that ninja >.<.

we were like really confused at first and searching alot of random places, until he was giving us clues with SMS lol. but the worst thing about trying to find him is that part of u doesn't really want to find him, because he will stare at u with those eyes from some dark corner. its darn creepy. so yea it took 8 ppl 20 minutes to find him lol. well its adrian XD

in the end, i was wondering how this cooking session suddenly turned out to be like some mini-gathering. its like a really fun outing without any special occasion whatsoever, but yea it was fun.

saturday was simin's housewarming. din't know any details other than meeting time though, so wasn't expecting the bbq to be during lunch time. so yea kinda just started of bbqing. first part wasn't much to do though, was just walking around joining a bunch of ppl looking at weiqi play 100 doors, or else just randomly talking. played murderer for quite a long time too, but this game wasn't as epic cos the murderers all don't dare kill de >.<

anyway, after that went up to her house to play. truth or dare again, but in the end the truth questions were really friendly, and i was the only dumb guy who chose dare the first time, so they made me do... ughhhh. damn. thank god the photo was blur. kinda played all the way till 6 and ate the ice cream cake, which was really delicious.

was intending to go home to eat, but ending up going out somemore, cos suddenly my parents said there won't be dinner at home. ate pepper lunch (again) at jcube. was mainly boonxin, yenling and rong talking about organising a grad trip to penang.

it sounds extremely feasible cos its not gonna be longer than one week (could be even before convocation), and the price would be in the hundreds only. so many ppl would be able to go. but i don't think i would ba. already have a super ex one to japan which would be darn special, so yea. plus i think they have their own ppl who would want to go to, so yep.

ok la, nth to say liao. actually i kinda reached home at abt 9 today, but anyway its getting late... so bye ~~

took too long to realise just one simple fact that wasn't so complex after all. shall try to be happier from now on.

jiamin's 18th

today was a pretty fun day, other than the fact that everyone died during PE cos of sim. i don't think he knows how hard it is to do 40 dips in a minute. or that its impossible to do 40 burpees, even if unlimited time was given lol.

anyway, today was jiamin's birthday, and we all din't prepare anything for him, so at around 1:30, while he was having bio till 3, met up with chee seng, lee and pin to get jiamin's cake. yeaaa the drink 2.5L of water everyday gang haha. and also the zen 5 gang lol (except pin hehe). we bought the cake at some shop called oishii. din't realise it was the exact same cake we got for junwei last year until later lol.

anyway, came back at about 2:35. left the cake with the drink stall auntie and went back up to class. it was still early so we decided to play cards. then at 2:50 we realised bio alr ended :0. so yea everyone was panicking cos jiamin was about to go home. had to get jookee to drag him back haha.

so initially we decided to like fake scam jiamin by making him come to class only to realise we din't do anything, then bring him down to the canteen and ya. quite dumb actually now that i think about it lol. our surprise failed miserably cos that guy wanted to go home and sleep on his birthday -.-. instead of drinking. or smoking. or.. u get the point. but ok la cos of PE we ran like 9 rounds today :0

so yea la we just all walked to the canteen, cos there would be no other reason to hold him back lol. at first we were all just sitting there, and we thought jookee would be the one to bring the cake out, but no, he decided eating chicken rice was more important :3. so jiamin was like acting unimpressed lol.

but ya la after that we got everything set up and stuff like that. was darn messy like last time, but we're like heck care, cos last time junwei's cake we also like that. and making cherry jokes lol. so yea wasn't really anything very special, but it was pretty fun haha.

ok la nothing else to say liao. bye~~

i think i get it now

year 6

this is going to be a random post lol.

so yea, we're all year 6s now (can't believe i am). i thought that year 6 was the big year. where alot of things happened. im not sure what our seniors did, but they always seemed like they were having fun. and then there were lots of photos of the seniors doing things together.

but when it was our turn to be year 6, it feels so empty, like there's nothing to do. to the extent where ppl are really just waiting to go off at one. something feels pretty wrong about that. its like we're missing the kick to our last year of high school.

so i was wondering whether it was really like this for our seniors. it probably was. remembered hearing some of them say there were days where they din't even need to go to school. so did they feel this bored too?

maybe i have an inflated view of our seniors. but i felt that the batch before us were a bunch of admirable ppl. i know the gap between our levels is only one year. just one year. but it seems like such a vast difference. they seem so much more closer, like they truly knew each other for six years already. so yea, im somewhat envious of them. i wish our level was like that too.

maybe it just takes some time for us to feel the urgency to do something lol. maybe one month down the road, things will start getting really fun. and actually so many ppl are trying hard to do something, be it acads, personal projects, preparing for NS, etc. maybe its just me slacking around too much la >.<

and actually there's one bunch of ppl that seems like they are going to have an awesome time this year haha. its really fun doing things with them. not going to say who they are though. it could be u im talking about here hehe.

ok la no more random things to say liao. and no more chuunibyou to watch already >.<. ok bye~~

the happiness of envy

ambiguous ranting

sorry this post will be really ambiguous haha, cos i couldn't suppress saying something about what i did this afternoon.

so yea. i went there, not knowing what to do, then finally stumbled on what i was looking for. but it was embarrassing to walk in there just like that, though it was just me psychoing myself by saying that

i told myself that no one there knew me, so its fine. even still it was pretty nerve-racking haha. but it was something i really wanted to do, and something that happened before made me sure that i had to do it. because i was beaten to it first even though i already wanted to do it long time ago lol.

so i went in there, person talked to me, i left lol >.<. had to compose myself (and going hoomaigawd all the time lol). went to walk around, only to go back and tell myself that heck, im going to do just that. so i finally went and got the thing :D. yea it was pretty exhilarating lol.

but i kinda went abit overboard, so i'll have to tone it down abit. plus i couldn't hide what i did. thank thank goodness my parents weren't home yet. and yea now no one will find out heheh, because if they do, i really have no idea how im going to explain to them lol (or more like, i'll die of embarrassment >.<).

so yea, i need to tone the thing down abit, cos it's seriously overdone lol. and yea i overdid myself too haha. but i know i'll be really satisfied when im done (and hopefully something else too :D). i've already thought about an excuse for what to use the overdone things for, so yea :D

ok done with the ranting. if u know what im talking about, u're really scary.... ok bye~~

time to go back to normal. and hope.

turning 18

sorry din't post for so long. been slacking alot ever since school started haha.

first week of school was pretty ok la. felt really nice to be back :D, but then the lessons were really sleep-inducing lol. nah actually it was just valles' and ye xiajuan's lesson lol. the rest are pretty interesting, cos of the teachers.

so now there are only like two lessons per day, but maybe that's why its boring cos there's nothing to do during breaks (no more hostel! D:). but even still i reached home at around 6-7 everyday this week. the troubles of living in the east :/

anyway, mentoring sessions are getting interesting again. i guess dewey is back with his good mood. and we also did our class decor darn early haha. all the artistic ppl in my class lol. i never knew aluminium foil could be used for so many things. but when it was finally done, it looked really good haha. made up for the empty black piece of paper that we had last year lol.



on wednesday, went with jiamin, pin, daryl, chee seng fiona, and jookee to star vista to eat dinner at some ramen stall called musashi. not bad la, but quite overpriced lol. felt abit bad to get treated cos it was ex, plus i was given money to spend this week lol.

anyway, there was this offer where u could top up the noodles to five times more, and jookee's side spammed noodles, so they ended up buying more than me haha. after that all of them were like bloated, so we went to play loser drink one whole glass of water again /o\. after that we just walked around at art friend to get deco items for cca fair, as well as look for inspiration for running man in school lol.

went home and then got an awfully chocalate birthday cake yeaaa. i was already pretty tired, so i wasn't really expecting it. but yea i turned 18. without buying any alcohol or 4D tickets or trying to visit the pub. im still too young for all these things haha. maybe 6 years later heheh.

but yea i was really thankful for the presents i got haha. most were food though, which can't really be kept lol. and yea ppl were really nice to me this week! and the juniors that i station mastered made me a 'happy birthday dion :) with the rocks in the water feature haha. im lucky :D.

anyway, had our last cca fair this friday too. had to paint and cut alot of stuff beforehand. we ran out of paint repeatedly on wednesday, but miraculously being able to squeeze abit more and finish half the banner with one tube of paint lol. and cutting out the circles for the badges, photos, and flyers. when the booth was finally  put up, it looked really impressive haha.

all the hard work that went to this booth :)





but i guess there's a limit to how much u can influence the juniors. i mean those who want to play a certain sport or join uniform group u can't really influence them to change their mind. so yea wasted alot of time on that day advertising. should have went around more, cos there was so much stuff to see that i missed that i only knew of after photos were uploaded. haiz i regret missing out some stuff haha. no more chance liao :/

i kinda missed the finale comm dinner for AAR cos its my sister's birthday. yea we're just two days (and six years) apart. and my eldest sister is jan 29 lol. anyway, ate at sushi tei. my first time le haha. din't eat as much sushi as expected, but the food was good :D (of cos la so ex lol). bedok point is really a mall full of places to eat. so yea ate a lot of good food this week haha.

ok la ranted so much. still need to watch one ep of chuunibyou heheh. bye~~

confused, but ready to go on

last orientation

been a pretty hectic but exciting three days haha. now can finally get some of the slack that i have been craving for haha :D. i need these breaks to keep me going lol.

but anyway, orientation has been really fun. these three days have been jam-packed with things to do, and it felt so long and fulfilling. i felt like i got closer to quite alot of ppl in just these three days. the actors, the ogl's while i was station-mastering, the ppl working on the key, and other ppl we just happen to work with and talk to. and i also changed my views on quite a few ppl that turned out to be nicer than i thought.

for me, it was rather slack, cos i din't really have a proper role decided even then. i just kinda went around and freelanced the jobs, so it was kinda more relaxed for me. it was pretty tough on some of the people, especially adrian and justin, so they really deserve the credit. so debriefing ended off on a pretty high note, except for the cleaning up :P. and we kinda went crazy taking photos haha.

but anyway we all kinda din't mention something during the briefing that deep down we all knew. personally, i was relatively entertained by the performances, especially nobel's save the earth dance haha. but ya, it wasn't what we expected, and frankly, i think a lot of yr 6's were disappointed.

but really, think about it. all this effort we put it won't be wasted de. at least for some people, we did manage to entertain them. and even though most of the people weren't impressed, the team really did put in their best effort, working late till 9:30 on second day for rehearsal, last minute chionging just before the finale itself.

and there was more than just the finale itself. quite a lot of people felt that some of the external activities were really successful, and for me, both days of station-mastering were really fun. yesterday's station was pretty complicated, requiring a broomstick, a cup, a plate and a marshmallow /o\. got a huge backache from picking up the plates and marshmallows that were catapulted on the floor lol. but it was really funny sometimes, and some of the juniors were really damn proooo.

of course there were a few who tried to cheat or to be funny, but otherwise generally the people who played were all pretty nice. mr ho was quite pro. he did 17 in 45s, cos all his hits were so damn consistent that they went to almost the same place each hit. no one could beat mr tan lol, cos that guy seriously too skilled le. 21 in 45s, he was like hitting and catching as fast as i could load the marshmallows and plates haha. i was like in complete awe while he was doing it lol. seriously, what the rui fong :0

today's game was extremely fun too, i really enjoyed just improvising the game on the spot, negotiating with the classes for hints on the station and talking to them in that qian bian manner XD, making them do funny forfeits, and occasionally disturbing them too :P. i really din't think i would be able to do it haha, but i felt that at least some of the juniors were entertained, so it was a really good feeling and satisfying :D.

and we spent all that time filing and painting the key, which in the end, we din't really had to spend so much effort on it. but seriously, i really don't mind haha, cos it was actually pretty fun just working on it with the other people. yong jen really should like frame up that key, cos its actually made up of alot of different parts that can be attached like a puzzle due to all the magnets.

its seriously super cool, but too bad we din't complete it early enough for the amazing race ppl to do the assembling. they would have appreciated it much more if they see how intricate it was. anyway, we really spent alot on effort on that, so it was a pretty good feeling of accomplishment, just not in the way we thought it would be.

it was pretty hard to make it, so i shall describe haha (to make myself feel good :P). on the first day, we got to use the physics lab to cut wooden pieces and plastic acryllic circles, then tried to superglue 2 magnets to each circle. that was really irritating, but at the same time quite epic, cos like every once in a while, someone will be like "oh $%#", cos the magnet would suddenly fly out from its superglued position and get stuck onto another magnet, and we would get hell for trying to seperate them again lolol. but after all that, by the night, we finished all 5 tubes in day one, filled with the stones.

yong jen and a few of us went to make the magnetic sliders, which are seriously darn cool. it required a huge load of time just sitting there and filing, and the sjab ppl were like using some whip sound on his phone lol. then finally we spray painted yesterday all the way till the night while finale was practicing. and finally completed the assembly today morning :D

also made the staff for nobellus with claudia's help :D. mainly some broomstick pole wrapped with crushed newspaper, spray painted, and acryllic painted for a different shade of brown. twirled the leaves around too, so it looked cool heheh. i was so darn proud of it haha, they had to take it from me cos i kept twirling it around and doing random stuff heheh.

lastly, the decorations put on the portal in the center of the hall was kinda on a whim, cos we already had a nice flame and lightning symbol from the spare decorations. it wasn't really a confirmed thing whether it was necessary to make, but after awhile some people just told me heck la if i want make i can go make. was darn rush lol haha, but in the end claudia help me cut, and jiamin was artistically spray-painting it with white and blue lol. actually it was more like anyhow :P. but ya, the crystal was partially his too heheh.

so to complete the remaining, we just took the leaves from the railing twirled in a circle and some paper strips from the waterfall made into a wave, which was abit unfair for fleming :P. so in fact all the symbols were made from spare decorations haha. also decided to take out the key that yong jen and the rest painstakingly made, but we had trouble assembling it without his help, and we were like really fumbling down to the last second. so everything was done just seconds before ppl entered the hall heheh.

it was pretty thrilling. and some of the people were impressed, so i kinda felt proud haha. though jeremy was fumbling with it when he first saw it though, so they went to station bouncers on the decor, which was pretty retarded haha. in the end everything was kinda kicked around, and i know it was kinda a useless decoration, but it was really pretty fun to do it anyway :D

anyway, i know it was pretty tough on some of the people who really slogged all the way till the very end. but really, the teachers were indeed impressed and they acknowledge the effort the whole team put in. like ms chua said, nothing we do will truly go to waste, cos some day we'll look back on this and wonder why we were so crazy to try so hard, but we'll be pretty proud of the effort we put it. so no regrets :). it was a really good experience :D

ok finally finished ranting haha. after ARP report is done, i can go back to my old, relaxed slacking days :D. ok bye~~

hoooooomaigawddd :D

start of 2013

wanted to do this yesterday, but ended up putting it off lol. and yea i crashed last night at 11 pm and woke up at 5 am, so i completely missed all the ppl going happy new year and stuff lol. and this also means that i have been sleeping for a year haha. anyway, this is a self-reflection post i guess. i'll try not to make it to hard to read lol.

the big things this year for me was hostel, where i got really close to some people. i also saw and tried out alot of new things, and i came to realise many wonderful things that i never knew about. i guess my life's pretty boring, cos right now all i can think of is me learning jap and watching anime though.

anyway, i went to look at myself one year ago, starting from december 2011. and i realised how shameless i was :P. i was also really hyper last time, to the point of being irritating haha. i was really excited about hostel, or any outing i was going to have. and i just talked about things without really thinking about whether it was interesting to others or not.

i like to think that every year i change for the better, though i think there were some things i could do in the past that i can't do now. i know i've become less lively and enthusiasm kinda died down, though i think im still pretty positive about things. im just slightly worried that ppl liked me better last time, cos even though i was irritating, maybe i had been more interesting.

one of the things i told myself last time was not to cause other people trouble. like for example, i knew i din't really care for my acads and stuff, so if its my own thing, i can screw myself up and that's ok, as long as i din't affect other ppl, like during project work. reason was simply cos i didn't want other ppl to hate me.

but i kinda failed at this really badly. im always making mistakes, losing my stuff, forgetting things, saying the wrong things, and yet always there's someone to back me up. i know i keep causing trouble, and i don't really need to emphasize this, cos i think everyone kinda knows.

deep down, i knew i was pretty much useless when it comes to important things. i can't give much help, cos i don't know what to do, cos im afraid to take action, cos i always cause some problem here or there. i felt this in orientation camp, and many other times before too. its quite a nasty feeling, cos in that short period of time, i realised that after awhile, everyone realises that i can't be given any important tasks too.

i know the reason for this though. its because im really just too absorbed in my own world and thoughts to take notice of things happening around me. maybe its because i have this things done for me. maybe its because i din't work for my things, so i ended up not taking care of them. i don't take care of my own stuff, and sometimes i simply don't think about the stuff that im doing, or will need to do later on.

but other people bother about their things. and there has been many times i've damaged or not take proper care of other ppl's things or forget to help them do something, and made them angry. and my own things too. my parents always scold me for losing my stuff, or damaging the things they entrusted to me. 

so by now, there are so many things that ppl tell me to take note of, because they know if they din't, i may screw something up later. its something i became used to, but sometimes i feel upset or angry because of it. i tell myself to deal with this, that its no one's fault that they are wary of my mistakes. because after i eat some of this crap and suffer a bit, eventually i would learn to stop doing these things.

i feel like its a bit unfair, cos i don't feel like i was doing anything wrong, but cos of my carelessness and things, alot of problems happen. its always when im in the midst of doing something nice when something catches me off guard, and it turns out to be my fault. its quite dumb to make ppl dislike me just cos of this.

so i hope i can change. i know how difficult this is for me, cos i'm unable to be to harsh on myself. i still like being the carefree, lax person i am. i like being in my own world and stuff. i like playing my games and watching anime. there are times im lazy, impatient, or can't be bothered to do certain menial things. so there's no excuse for that.

i just hope that maybe one day, i can slowly change to become someone to be dependable, or maybe just at least not make everyone have to look out for me, to cause trouble for others. hope i can be more livelier too, just like last time, except not talk and talk while no one is caring lol. also try to be kinder and more pleasant.

afterall, i just want to enjoy the rest of my school days, and it'll be really great if i can stop causing problems so that people would stop minding me and leaving me out. for me, it'll take many more mistakes, and it'll keep repeating and repeating, but one day, i hope i can stop being so blur. look after my things and other people's things. not be late anymore.

also, i'll try my best to be able to reach N3 level for jap :D, so that i can talk to my exchange buddies. and i hope this year would be great, and everyone can have fun for this last year of school we have.

ok la orientation starts tmr. after the camp, which was kind of halfway for me, it ended in a pretty high note, and im quite hyped up for it haha. for all my duty allocations, three times i got stationmaster lol. but now i might have to control sound effects for the finale, and more. -welp-. i hope it goes smoothly lol. i already hoped for so much stuff this year haha.

ok enough alr la. bye~~

in the end, i still felt a shock when it actually happened