unscheduled life

back to posting again haha. im not going to be ranting about what im not doing again though lol.

anyway, i kinda like the idea of having life with a schedule and stuff. like school. its weird to have free time after having this for, 12 years combined. im not proactive enough or have enough courage to like start out something on my own, from scratch, or like stepping far out of my comfort zone to try something new, i guess. so yea its been boring since i left school i guess.

i don't feel so bad actually (maybe cos im a pretty chill person, and procrastinates a lot lol). but i have nothing to tell other people, while people these days have so many things to tell me. listening to other ppl talk about what work is like is interesting though haha. and other kinds of things they have tried. mostly complaints la heh.

yea im those kind of people who like not having to think too much about what to do. but i still had much fun in school. because it was less time per day, after a long day of school, u'll simply spend ur free time picking up a new game, or anime, or things to watch or do. then we started to play around more from y4-y6. so even with every day repeating i felt like it was different each day. and shiok cos i dint have to think about anything else. maybe its just my character to not think much about stuff haha.

that's why im abit excited for uni actually, cos i feel like peer influence could let me pick up a lot of new hobbies. like make an anime band heh. or maybe pick up sword-fighting, fencing lol. maybe make new games, like holographic rhythm games on real life instruments. and to be frank, ns seems interesting to me too. its like learning about war. the only thing i dread is that i might get into serious trouble and have a rough time. and it may get abit too boring in there.


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anyway, for now though, i still haven't worked yet though, cos i guess im not proactive enough, lazy, etc. so after hearing what ppl did in the past month (some people did pretty amazing stuff), i decided maybe i should start small. i only have one small routine so far, and i quite like it. its gym with my parents every sunday. but don't make it sound so big la. to be honest, it really feels like pe to me, cos the instructor is a nice person. and its abit difficult, but sometimes it feels like im playing some sort of game haha.

anyway, firstly, im gonna do 20 push-ups a day, in the toilet just before bathing cos i don't want my parents to know lolol. mainly is cos im very bad at it, and cos i get the impression i will be doing a lot of pumping in army. more than most ppl lol. its damn little actually, but its not easy for me to do it at one go, like proper ones. shows how weak i am D:. but yea, start small haha. only push-ups for now though. cos im just prepping for a whole lot of punishment in army heheh. and cos 20 no kick won't give up de haha.

secondly, gonna improve my jap moaarrr. its not enough, my knowledge. i can barely communicate, even if i can understand what the person is saying. but i did enjoy learning it so far. anime is more interesting when u understand the way they talk. and so are listening to songs. i want to be better so i can read and translate for ppl, hear ppl talk and understand perfectly. talk back casually. watch videos and be able to understand.

and its fun learning jap, after u have been trying for awhile. like i recently went to karaoke, and hmm i guess i was the only person to last for the whole 4 hours haha. but i realise i take a curiosity to things that are jap-related. like cool household products. or things with jap words on it heh. so yea, i'll try working hard haha. go at least 30 mins on more grammar every day, when im not leaving house that day.

the last thing on the list is to pick up a job. after hearing so many stories and stuff, i suddenly feel like working in fast food chain stores heh. my ideal is starbucks though, which i've always considered a crazily ex place for youths to go, but after what my mom told me about how this kind of stores function, and after thinking abit about it, i feel like it'll be actually quite an interesting experience.

from what ppl tell me, f and b is very taxing cos either 1) u barely have time to rest and have to stand all day, or 2) the ppl u work with, or ppl u serve are a bit kao bei, cos u know with work, singaporeans always feel very frustrated talking abt it.

and then there's the scenario where u finish ur job so fast u have nothing to do, but then u cant like slack off, so ur boss or manager makes u do random things that are abit strange. i guess the managers also have it tough, cos its not like they can manage everything perfectly and they might be at a loss of what to do either.

but the impression i get is that in smaller store like these, everyone kinda contributes to the running of the store. there's allocation of jobs of course, but sometimes u need to fill in for others in case they are not there. so maybe other than just making drinks, cleaning, i might also be doing inventory, buying goods and all that. sounds quite interesting.

and it seems like everyone's a bit more equal too haha. i think it'll be nice to work with ppl of similar age, maybe some even younger than me (though i will always be an 8 year old). if my coworkers are nice, i might meet someone of similar interests or someone i can talk casual things about. or maybe i might meet some inspiring nice person that does a lot of meaningful things heh.

i know the pay won't be very good, but i guess that was never really my concern anyway, i just need enough money to pay for my outings. and abit off to the debt i incurred from grad trip lol. since there's barely anything i really need to buy. and work truthfully will probably never be that pleasant, but i think if its three months i might be able to do it heh. hopefully.

i think i've ranted quite abit today haha. good luck to the future working me, i hope >.<. and to the ppl going in army soon too haha. i get to hear accounts of army directly too, additionally bonus of entering later haha. k enough now. bye~~