pop lo!

hi im back after very long haha. recently i just pop-ed from my gunners course, and although the actual thing seemed very meh cos we still got tekan-ed that day and we're still remaining in the same place, i get the feeling that life in camp will probably get more fun from now on haha.

anyway, the summary of the course was basically driving, where we drove on muddy tracks in gedong, washing up of guns and maintenance, learning how to operate all the ammo loading mechanism, types of ammo etc. and also a lot of pt, chores and cleaning haha. and although many ppl said it was sian, the ppl who came in halfway through the course says the facilities very lousy. but even after all that, i still feel somewhat lucky that i ended up there, cos the stuff we learnt and gone through was quite interesting even though it can get sian (cleaning especially). 

maybe i could have done as well even if i was posted elsewhere, like let's say 23SA, or maybe as a GA/signaller, but after going through what i did, and trying to explain to others what i'm doing now, i kinda feel quite glad that at least 21SA is somewhat interesting. and i did feel like i put in quite a lot of effort during this course then i probably did my whole life. although there aren't many achievements to show that, but i managed to get a silver for my IPPT, and maybe i did become stronger after all haha.

there was one point during this course that i felt quite upset. i not the most aware of ppl, and of course not everyone would be that understanding and less judgemental. even then, i think i tried too hard to fit in, and ended up as somewhat of a joke. like not being taken seriously or ignored. its damn hard to maintain a conversation with some ppl when the first few sentences already sting u until u don't feel like talking anymore.

i guess i kinda learnt how to not to force it too much. and i kinda gotten a bit more familiar with my phone haha. ended up watching more anime and using the ds emulator to play all sorts of games heh. and that after while i realised that ppl don't hate me as much i thought they did, its just that somehow they like to make fun of me. but over time, i managed to get along with most ppl. even started like teaching ppl basic jap cos they wanted to learn so badly haha.

and recently, the days in camp have been quite peaceful. plus now they are "opening up" the lounge area for use, which has the ps2, table tennis tables, and quite a few board games, not to mention sofas and aircon :D. its really quite a comfy place, and we're soon allowed to use it provided we put in effort in decorating it and making it nice. its also a place where u see the sergeants just fooling around like normal men haha, and that kind of lightens up the mood of being stuck in camp haha.

anyway, there's alot i can say but that's all for now ba. bye~~