its not exactly that i'm worried for the trip or anything. ok at first i was, what with all the stuff that ppl keep telling me. and also for awhile, i felt that i'd be extremely awkward and screw things up when i go there.
now its more like i'm feeling somewhat sian. especially after finishing the info booklet and presentation. idk what else is there to do. i watch anime, but then not continuously, since i have the feeling like there isn't much time before the flight and i should be doing something else.
maybe its cos i've been tolerating a lot of stuff since thursday, boredom, anger, worry, discomfort.
my mum has been really, haiz, irritating and stuff. especially since thursday, where there was no school. sometime it gets pleasant and stuff, then other times, it just gets really annoying cos she keeps ranting on and i just disagree on some things, and then she says i shouldn't be like that or why am i always like that. and then i realise i don't feel like disagreeing anymore, but it doesn't stop, and i just sigh and shut up. but it happens so many times a day that sometimes i get angry too. grrr. a lot of pent-up moments since thursday.
finally got the packing done, with quite a lot of help from my mum. which makes me realise that i still get helped quite a lot.
i guess i did have quite a large share of fun since exams ended. like really. just that maybe i stopped blogging about them, but at least i noted them down. running man. karuta. outings to ppl's house, pool, movies, halo, board games. even organized a bbq and sleepover.
so yea. when monday night finally arrives (which feels like forever), i'll feel much better. please come. faster >.<
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