leap day

today chinese finally got that compre done, and almost nothing else happened except for one worksheet. after that went out stop at student lounge say hi to ppl mugging for math lolz. omg i still have simin's notes :o

anyway... chen ge was there. he had "contact picture" of felicia lolz. oo scandalous. nah. anyway he sang for us haha. wish him luck for talent search. and jordan kept drawing random cartoons on simin's math notes. amoebear :o. actually thats not too bad a joke...

then had college councilling. dint even had any college stuff though, cos according to some starcraft guide, u learn 10X better when u do it urself... got kicked out of audi for sleeping sml. at the last 5 mins somemore. argh, i had to "ninja" at the space between the two doors to hear what he was saying, which wasnt actually that relevant except that mentor reps had to do something. but yea fine i slept late last night :o. not trying to push the blame or anything lolz.

math was fun again. but yea there's always this longing to sit somewhere else, anywhere. i just can't stand how my position in class makes me feel nonexistent and no one talks to me :(  hope next sem change le...

after math had ssef briefing, which was useless for me actually. at first then went over to listen to jookee's band practise in music room :D. is being in a band a wonderful feeling? they seem to really enjoy themselves. went to support them while they auditioned lolz. lots of groups got true actually. yea their band is called "ano-hana", which means "the flower" in jap. lol but dr wong said they lack chemistry. see how haha. hope they win :D

played soccer after dinner. was ok la. i was lucky got put in the team which had an easier time. i mean there's fong to control ur balls when u screw up and no choice pass to him. but yea jus a game man. im not trying be hypocritic lolz. of cos wouldnt be as nice losing, but still its fun right? as long as u dont have the kiasu mindset.

missed rollcall today. oh why, why, why? i was doing something for our room ok. i manually cleaned the muck at the shower area ok? i mean im supposed to do that, but damn i want credit /o\. but ended up forgetting about rollcall. unfair D<

k jookee and chee seng talking bout something. i know the answer but dun wan say lolz. cos i am _____, but i try not to be _____.

i keep thinking bout how appealing the idea of being blessed is like. its like u shud look at how ur blessed in life such that ur problems seems to melt away. sometimes i feel quite frustrated at some stuff, but im actually a really lucky person. i belong to awesome cluster 12A. cant forget that fact. if i wasnt in this cluster, or in media club, or chose the wrong school, cant imagine what my life'll be like man... but one cant have everything.

i could always change things by speaking up, but i feel bad about changing stuff. it is true that everyone is selfish in the sense that when u get something good that only a few ppl in a certain group would get, no one is really that willing to share it right? even with close friends lolz. i mean of course there's reluctance. me too sian. have to stop complaining all the time. everyone has some hard time in some area or another. no one is that lucky to have all their stuff they wish for (as in like being in some certain group, or being in the same class as some fren etc.). so sharing is hard. which is why i dont dare speak up, for fear of seeming demanding.

wow that was really long lolz. i need do chinese. this time cant just put it off cos its grp work. haiya nothing difficult just look up wiki and copy down lolz. kk lolz bye...

P.S. its so freaky when u have been pretending and seemingly ignoring something for so long, only to realise that all the time ppl have seen through u. ouchhh