why we used to hang out so much

ok this din't come from me, it was just what i heard. and its not going to have any drastic change on me or anything, just that i found it made alot of sense and it was interesting to think about. have u wondered why did we go out so much last time?

can u remember what it was like last time we used to play soccer almost everyday? all the epic fails and hitting the posts and everyone dying from laughter. i have a rough memory of what it was like, though there's probably alot i have forgotten. but i bet it's in my blog somewhere.

it was back then when we were all much lousier then now. i shall list some examples. how we always tried to bully hema :P, how huang and jiamin always zam the ball high in the air, how wong and chee always comes late cause of bridge but always end up coming.

and then after everything, we'd all just lie on the track, exhausted. play cards and talk until it was about 7pm. din't think about this, but what if someone have been watching us from, let's say hostel? they probably couldn't have understood what fun it was unless they experienced it themselves.

and no offense, but do u remember the times when it was always pin vs daryl? pin always keeps wanting to go home, while daryl always tried to salvage certain ppl who are bound to stay. come to think about it, it's actually quite hilarious lolz.

and there was always a few of us who wanted to play no matter what. and ppl like wong and chee, stuck in the middle, and ending up playing bridge. but in the end when we decided to play soccer, we din't regret. even though it means leaving school at 7 every friday.

yea i know this doesn't really sound like me, cos they weren't from me lol. but how did all of us just fit in like this, despite from being in so many different classes? there were many clicks that just broke off from year 2 to year 3, but the ex-07 one just endured. its actually quite amazing.

all of this was due to chance. and im really glad i was so lucky to just happen to fit in this group of ppl just like that. i don't exactly know how it happened, but when i first joined, everyone found me irritating or something. then it just happened, i just fit it and everyone got used to it. its like magic, i can't really explain.

maybe its cause all of us always went home together. as in not everyone was in the same direction, but most ppl took bus to commonwealth, and its usually just chee and wong (and hema) who went the other way. where we were always trying to help chee and wong shake off hema haha. i dunno why i was so against hema last time, but it was fun :P

so when our lessons ended, we were always waiting for ppl from other classes. and when we met up, somehow we were always trying to find something to do, because we felt it would just be boring to go home. i dunno how that concept came to me, but it did. and thus we always talked about playing soccer or bridge.

i used to be against bridge, cos maybe at that time all i wanted was to play soccer. but after that i realised that no matter what we did, we always did it together, and i changed towards wanting to spend more time with u guys. it just happened. like magic.

i guess as we grow up, this gets harder and harder to achieve. we used to just do whatever we want? why? because why not was the reason. i just joined wanting to have fun, not really caring that it was awkward. that ppl din't really like me at first. i was always trying to play ppl's iphones :P, and i din't think at that time that ppl felt it irritating. but slowly, ppl just got used to this. and then we became friends.

nowadays its harder cos everyone has matured. but it'll be nice to remember those times again. maybe next year the conditions would be right again. we would always be trying to look for each other after breaks, i hope. and not wanting to go home so fast cos that would be boring. and being able to see who's playing just by looking out from our classes too. sure, it won't be the same, but if it really do happens, that be really nice.

i know many things have changed, so there are more things to consider now. yea the present is more important now. new friends have become important too, and we can't just think about the past, cos we need to move on. but there could be a guilt forming, because last time we were somewhat inseparable. that its sad for it just to end like that.

it can’t be helped, cos in the end, everyone goes separate ways. its an inevitable fact, that we make more friends and lose friends. we have to continue with what is present, the new ones. but its ok actually. we just need to live in the present, but treasure the past memories. why we were so happy at that point of time, its important too. even though we may not be together in the future. 

maybe if we looked it in another way, there's nothing to feel guilty or regret about. because we don't have to compare what it's like now and last time. both are awesome in their own way.

maybe im saying this because im worried i won't be able to see u guys in the future. im not sure how certain i am, but i can feel this strong desire to go to japan. im not transforming my whole life now, but im generally pushing myself in that direction, and trusting that no matter what happens, we would all adapt and find something we really want.

ideally i would end up in japan, but i could be doing something else i feel would be really awesome as well. and thus i haven't given any more serious thought about the future. i just trust that no mater what happens, we'll all find a way somehow. and thus i think its okay to just pursue what we want now. because in the end, even if its unexpected, it will all work out.

ok going out for coffee and haircut(damn) soon. bye~~

not going to do anything drastic, but i shall try harder