just a bit lonely

being at home means i can do anything i want for the whole day. when im at home, i end up trying out and doing more stuff that i want to do, because i won't be embarrassed as there's no one to see what im doing. i feel like i have more time to do stuff i want. but then after a while, it gets really lonely cos there's no one to talk to.

i think im finally starting to miss hostel already. towards the end, the days seemed to pass so fast, cos we kept doing the same thing over and over again. sleep late, wake up late, eat lunch, do arp for the day, play borderlands, watch anime, go crash other clusters, play board games. it was boring after awhile. kinda. but it wasn't lonely, cos there's always laughter and talking somewhere.

i guess all this is cos i don't have any younger siblings to play with, and im too free, to always be staying at home like this.

yesterday's orientation briefing lasted way longer than expected. the plot is quite epic, though there was a huge loophole yesterday we took damn long, until galen finally solved it. still kinda weird, but yea if it goes well, its quite epic. i was abit overexcited yesterday, so even the juniors commented on how funny my face looked >.<

anyway, the juniors in our comm are rather fun to talk too. ended up digressing quite abit and talking to them about hostel life too. mainly was boon chong telling them all the stuff he did, like the time he hacked the bamboo with loo's knife :0. yep that was pretty long ago. the crazy stuff we used to do lol.

watching steins gate now. its really very good. some moments u can feel the terror the main character goes through, and some moments almost made me cry, which is quite easy, except i manage to hold it in everytime lol.

anyway, i wonder how its like for someone who doesn't watch anime to read a post about anime. they probably don't really understand what's with the obsession. i don't really know either. when someone asks me why my cluster is so jap-loving, can't really answer. just appeals to me somehow ba. i guess its hard to understand someone else's hobbies ba. like i don't know why ppl like F1, or watching soccer matches late in the night. everyone's different i guess.

been watching videos on youtube to entertain myself. and reading reviews and lyrics and stuff. it feels quite good to have somebody agree with an anime u like haha. but its not like i am bothered by negative comments anyway. im quite surprised to see that many ppl like jinrui lol. there's even a piano transcription on the OP, which i like alot, though its kinda weird lol. then again, many ppl make weird videos haha.

should try playing the piano, though i feel paiseh, dunno why. my family kinda knows i play the recorder already, cos even if i stuff a mat under the door and close all the windows, they can still hear >.<. wish i had a soundproof room at home, so i can play anything and shout and do whatever i want lol.

anyway, feel like trying this song on piano, cos there's something i really like about this song. of course not like that la, i not that pro >.<. gonna simplify it as much as i can ba. maybe its too much to try for though. haven't got down to playing piano yet cos of some weird awkwardness i feel. but at least this song is playable on a recorder too haha.

ok been ranting too much liao. i know i don't use my blog like normal ppl lol. kk bye~~

its been so long, but i still don't know anything much yet