i wish i had jap classes on the weekend so that i stop procrastinating at home. jcs hasn't contacted me yet after one month. maybe i shall go back there one day.
went to check out the one at tampines cc yesterday, but its wed and only elementary course. i guess its just too hard to find a short intermediate course that finishes before sep.
anyway i realised why i wanted to blog differently. my posts are bland because all i talk about is what i do, but i don't put my insights or emotions inside. anyway i realised this cos i read fiona's post about our dinner on friday. haha that dinner was really simple but felt so nice.
im also really glad that we are hanging out together. the gang is special, and i just can't get the same feeling with other ppl.
i'm really sry to the ppl in my class reading this, but as much as they are really bonded and fun-loving, i still can't help but feel somewhat restrained and slightly excluded. i guess its probably cos my class ppl is always working on stuff and doing meaningful things and talking about not having enough time to do work, while im always staying back late cos i want to hang out, draw, play futsal, etc. and basically slack.
maybe i feel somewhat guilty for slacking and also different from them. cos all i want to do is have as much fun as i can this year. im too lax on myself because i have a very idealistic dream in my head.
with the gang though, i feel so comfortable being myself and not awkward to do retarded things or say anything or joke around. there's no atmosphere of work or seriousness and its just fun and epicness. there's a little bit of physicalness and swearing and teasing, but they're good ppl and i guess the balance is just right for me. after all, i know im a slacker at heart :P.
i hope i haven't offended anyone by writing this. kk its the 15th today, ppl are coming to my house :D. bye ~~
don't sacrifice happiness to do things that do not truly make u happy
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