hell week

this week is really hell week. everyone's seems to be stressed and upset, and i'm being somewhat affected too. feeling rather worried that some of the unhappiness ppl are feeling are caused by me, cos haiz... i think i did some things wrongly.

can't really stand the sianness of it all sigh. usually not so stressed up like this. just hope once thursday is over everything goes back to normal. there's rm and also that dinner to look forward to. just two more days D:

k la that's all for now. bye~~

unexpectedly great day :D

today turned out to be a really fun day haha. pe was like crap la of cos. only managed to run 8 rounds tskk.

kinda pon-ed house meeting today lol (yea i know im bad :P), and instead ended up playing some running man haha. me, daryl and kian wee went to re-play that game of trying to pull out each other's band around their arm cos daryl kinda missed out on the action last week. idk why 05 has a gigantic roll of parafilm, so we used as the arm band(i know, very waste).

we tried out with other stuff too, like the tag thing in RM and gloves from yong jen's bag (who smuggles them from the bio lab o_o). fiona even went to film it down now, so we now have our first short RM video haha. very embarassing though heheh. was thinking on how epic it'll be if chee seng can build on the idea and make some mass free for all in the netball court with some task too, like picking up cards or something. no pressure to do it though, we can always try it out ourselves.

and art i finally finished my drawing haha, which commented that it was good :D. everyone was kinda reluctant for it to end though, cos all too engrossed le. even though left at 6:10, managed to find wong, chee and huang in the lounge, and fiona ended art around that time too. so yea, din't go home alone this week ^^. played some 5 player murderer also haha. and huang with his jokes again lol.

can't wait for next two days to be over, where most of us'll be finally free from ARP :D. looking forward to RM on thursday and that celebratory dinner we're planning to have haha. two more days, let's go! kk nth to say le. bye ^^

why i love the gang

i wish i had jap classes on the weekend so that i stop procrastinating at home. jcs hasn't contacted me yet after one month. maybe i shall go back there one day.

went to check out the one at tampines cc yesterday, but its wed and only elementary course. i guess its just too hard to find a short intermediate course that finishes before sep.

anyway i realised why i wanted to blog differently. my posts are bland because all i talk about is what i do, but i don't put my insights or emotions inside. anyway i realised this cos i read fiona's post about our dinner on friday. haha that dinner was really simple but felt so nice.

im also really glad that we are hanging out together. the gang is special, and i just can't get the same feeling with other ppl.

i'm really sry to the ppl in my class reading this, but as much as they are really bonded and fun-loving, i still can't help but feel somewhat restrained and slightly excluded. i guess its probably cos my class ppl is always working on stuff and doing meaningful things and talking about not having enough time to do work, while im always staying back late cos i want to hang out, draw, play futsal, etc. and basically slack.

maybe i feel somewhat guilty for slacking and also different from them. cos all i want to do is have as much fun as i can this year. im too lax on myself because i have a very idealistic dream in my head.

with the gang though, i feel so comfortable being myself and not awkward to do retarded things or say anything or joke around. there's no atmosphere of work or seriousness and its just fun and epicness. there's a little bit of physicalness and swearing and teasing, but they're good ppl and i guess the balance is just right for me. after all, i know im a slacker at heart :P.

i hope i haven't offended anyone by writing this. kk its the 15th today, ppl are coming to my house :D. bye ~~

don't sacrifice happiness to do things that do not truly make u happy

media outing

had media outing today to city hall area. was quite ok la. some parts were sian but we got to walk around and see lots of stuff.

anyway, being too paiseh to take ppl up and front, i was mostly doing random spying shots, like pretending to be resting or just walking by and secretly taking the photo. its fun cos even though u won't know how it'll turn out, if its good, u get to see ppl either being cool or being really happy haha. usually it goes bad, but there are 4 photos im proud of :D. (hey i seldom post photos anyway)

so firstly, i got wong looking like some pro :D

haha i think he lost all his avoiding photo skills alr :P

then i got jm doing some cool pose :P

how often do u get to see both of them smiling in the same pic? XD

png doing his :3 expression again

and pin doing idk what

haha i'm so gonna get murdered on monday >_<

after that came back to school to play soccer. reached back at 7 though D:. was fun but so short and the sky got dark damn quickly. sigh. anyway, today's the first week im eating out on fridays haha, and went with wong, yeo, kian wee, lee and fiona to koufu at commonwealth. and hema decided to tag along in the end lol.

so lee has a theory that when hema's around, we always start a convo, then hema says something, and then the convo becomes a sword and stabs hema haha. then the topic changes and the cycle repeats. its just too damn fun to insult hema haha.

its only during thursday and friday of this week and two weeks ago that we all come together like this, but it feels like such a long time alr haha. feels really great to hang out with this bunch of ppl haha. ok la need go off le. bye~~

running man 2 ^^

had our second running man session today yea. been looking forward to this the whole week cos there wasn't much events for me this week. i think im gonna rant again lol.

ok la the games were a bit more messy today, but the best part of today's session was the chasing. started off with the 'thief' game, which i shan't really explain, but basically everyone was trying to get hema killed lol. yea i know he suddenly became a permanent member, which means a lot of games would be... biased.

anyway, me and daryl were exempted by winning games, and we both gave our cards to hema lol, thus he couldn't get rid of his thief card. even after the musical chairs and heart attack in an attempt to switch the seats, everyone took back their own seats on purpose. sucks to be hema haha.

after that, played some dodgeball at the back of auditorium, and some card arranging race and the stairs, which was pretty damn dirty :/. then finally we did the chasing game, which was really good imo.

*ranted like crazy somewhere else. but those ppl who played probably heard it from me already so not going to mention haha.

anyway, we were all partnered and given plastic bags to wrap around our arms, and we are supposed to search for as many wooden pegs around the 4th and 5th floor area of the school. we can also eliminate each other by pulling off their band. and i got partnered with hema :/. but he actually turned out useful and i guess its good cos no one saw us as a threat haha.

there were many epic moments, managed to kill chee and wong, which i really swear i didn't expect haha #proud. waa the wong one was really lucky haha. last two ppl were me and kianwee. tried to ninja kianwee by suddenly appearing from the stair door. but wong happened to instinctively block me. damn.

in the end, we did some showdown at netball court haha. lasted for like 5 mins lol. just went around in circles and kianwee and pushing me and trying to turn me. in the end we both tried to pull each other's band at the same time, but kianwee's arm longer, so yea.

in the end, me, hema, daryl and fiona were tied with 5 points, so we did some mini searching at the 6th floor audi area, which i swear is the perfect hideout. chee seng hid like 15 there and i only managed to find one, while lee and hema got the red striped wooden pegs. so hema got to be in top 3 in his first time playing. gg lol. maybe we'll all end up having to treat him at the end of the sem :0. after that we just ate at burger king and went home.

kind of looking forward to tmr's media trip haha. last week's lesson with flash was surprisingly interesting. we only got the consent form today lol, cos mr syed's always like this >.<. anyway, today was a good day :D

ok la nth else to say le. bye~~

sometimes it better to pretend not to know so u don't lose the only things u have left

candy crush addiction

haha its quite retarded how we can be so hyped up by these games. me, kian wee, lee and nicole were all crowding around daryl and essentially all giving different instructions haha. and shouting when the level was finished with one move left. seriously addictive game sia lol.

ok don't really want to talk too much about candy crush haha. spent most of today doing ARP sigh. when its all over we really should go somewhere and celebrate haha. feels damn long since we have an outing like back when we were in year 4.

k la so late plus i kinda rushed this post. bye ~~

mondays

mondays are usually quite sian, cos its one of the days i don't get to go home with ppl and play zha on the bus or murderer in the train like last friday. i have RM on my phone to watch, but usually im so shagged by the end of the day due to PE that i can't keep my eyes open and finished watching.

and yea today's PE was pretty hellish. 8 rounds after CNY, plus i din't get proper sleep >.<. stomach wasn't feeling very good after doing 25 push-ups and crunches. yea im too weak :/. ate porridge, but ended up eating lunch again, cos porridge is nothing lol.

i kinda played 4 pics 1 word with wong and chee too. its damn fun to play in a group haha. and the reactions after finding out the word is some scam like 'basic'. i deleted that game cos i tot i was the only retard who would play it, but turns out so many ppl just downloaded it lol.

today's art was pretty nice. actually, to be honest, it probably was quite boring, but i'm really happy with my apples and my grapes haha. the basket was off proportion though. yu xuan's starting to teach more, but he still really doesn't say anything until u make a screw up and then goes 'u shudn't do this and that...' and he has pretty high expectations, like us spending at least 8 hours on today's drawing. but ok la, learning quite a lot haha.

ok that's it ba. hope tomorrow's less tiring and more fun. bye ~~

quick update

sorry for not posting for so long >.<. i've been freaking lazy ever since CNY lol... and also candy crush's fault, cause it's so darn addictive -.-

anyway, i realised that my blog posts are talking about what i did, and basically im saying the same thing over and over again, that it was fun etc, which probably is rather boring to read, cos im writing them to remember them. its not something that other ppl need to read about anyway. so recently i created a sort of a simple log to capture what i did that day and what was funny and stuff, which is much more convenient and easier to do cos i can just use my phone.

so this means i don't have to rant too much about what i did for that day, but focus on the more interesting stuff haha. so yea i'll TRY to make my posts shorter and more interesting heheh. probably wouldn't work for big, epic events, but those are probably more interesting to write about anyway.

k la that's it for now. bye :)

P.S. this isn't an excuse for my not blogging :P

damned candy crush is making me procrastinate so much lol

first nush RM session :D

sorry haven't been posting so long. i was free the whole of today, but i have mainly been... procrastinating. anyway, i ranted abit too much on this post... ps la >.<

so finally, after so much planning and discussing, we had our first RM session this thursday haha. i lost almost every single game except the catching part haha. it was really interesting and fun. kudos to chee seng from planning all this :D.

anyway, most of us were already at the student lounge before the thing started. chee, wong and junwei also. we were mainly slacking and playing citadels, and in the end, they also decided to join our RM session :D. so we had lee, wong, chee, junwei, boon chong, me, kianwee and nicole at first.

started of with this ping pong game in some unused room at 4th floor E block, which was pretty random but funny.  it was somewhat like an orientation game. chee seng was mainly randomly throwing ping pong balls around the room, while we had a plastic bag between our arms.

we were all supposed to snatch for the ball lol. chee catches like 4 or 5 every round while i caught 2 for both rounds and got eliminated :/. in the end, was showdown between chee and lee, and chee got like 11 balls wth. too hackzz alr, using his buddha powers lol.

after that we played chicken fighting (which basically we are required to hold up one leg and hop around and try to knock each other down) in the room lol, which was probably wasn't chee seng's intention, but woa it was really epic. so yea we split ourselves into three groups, and we put chee and lee in the 2 man group cos they are super pro at the game.

wong was also darn ghey la, cos he uses like his whole body to ram ppl. even managed to knock down chee wth. i was mostly sent flying for both rounds, one by wong and one by junwei. i suck at these games haha. we only played two rounds cos after that everyone was like dead tired alr lol. after that, we played murderer to rest abit while waiting for fiona to come after her econs. we can never get sick of that game haha.

so at 4 the chasing game started. too bad it was raining though. abit tricky to run plus can't really hear the bells cos of the background noise. anyway, it was kian wee, nicole, fiona, lee and me in the mission team, and we were supposed to search all the 3-5 floor classroom lockers for numbers to a combination lock that was hidden under the faraday score counting post in the concourse (which i think was pretty brilliant :D)

however, the chasing team was wong, boonchong, chee and junwei la, which is really too damn overpowered lol. they din't know what our mission was, and they had to rip off the band on our wrist to eliminate us (which is pretty difficult actually). but still :/.

at first we kinda had a very good method, which was one person keep guard by staring down the corridors, while the rest of the members went to search the lockers. cleared about the whole of b block. but then when the chasing team closed in on us, we all just freaked out and split up. i kinda cheated abit by going out of bounds to the carpark area and back up from staff room.

but then chee suddenly came from 4th floor, and i managed to escape to the concourse (where ppl were having pe, who were probably wondering what the heck we were doing haha) when wong came. struggled and managed to keep them from pulling off my band for one whole min, but got reallllllyy tired, plus those two buff guys took turns to hold me down, so i couldn't run away. was first to be eliminated :/. slow and weak haha.

in the end, i still went to spy on them, giving info through whatsapp group lol. not as instant as walkie-talkie, but still pretty useful. nicole managed to find one '5' in the b block, while fiona got revived for the second half of the game cos the catching team was too pro. anyway, i personally saw kian wee and daryl get caught lol, and nicole got caught too. but fiona managed to avoid detection for the whole game after that and found the other two digits. the final code was 605 and mission team won ^^

last game was some angpao thing. chee seng hid 20 angpao's in the hall that day, and only one was moved from its hiding position. pretty amazing. and the game was super good haha. the hiding places were really cool. there were a few giveaways but the rest was really tricky to find haha. anyway, only managed to find 2 of the 20, and it was mostly chee stealing fiona's angpao's or the other way round haha. so yea we concluded the day with that game. looking forward to the next one :D.

ate at KFC with kianwee, cheeseng, hema, daryl, fiona, wong and chee. kept bugging wong with questions about phyllis haha. and kept provoking chee with that pose of him when he was young XD. apparently wong got it from phyllis cos phyllis and chee were in the same piano class looong time ago. the world is really too small haha.

ok la shall conclude the post with this. bye~~

awesome weekend

wow this weekend has been really fun haha. in fact, for these past two weeks, there were about ten days where i really enjoyed myself haha. but yea im so screwed for next week lol. haven't touched chem prac or english, and i had to make myself occupied fully for next week :0. but even still my mood now is really awesome heheh. the freedom of being 18!~~ :D

saturday i kinda crashed the WCD event, cos i was pretty amazed that so many ppl from our gang was going haha. even wong omg. seriously that guy is a changed man haha. so met wong and junwei at JE at 12:35. we spent like forever waiting for that jookee, cos that guy went to watch anime before coming tskkk. waited until 1:15 lol. but at least we got treated to mcflurry yay :D

by the time we reached macs it was already like 2 lol. almost no time to eat der. met daryl and fiona on the way, then chee seng came later once we were done eating. lee kept talking about murderer lol, cos he's super addicted to the game now lol. kept winking randomly.

but ya the first part of the thing wasn't really doing anything actually. tot we needed to help setup or something, but in the end didn't need to. so we ended up playing murderer until 3:50, then the people started coming.

got grouped with hardik. was supposed to get ppl to write their pledges for WCD, but i too paiseh le la. yea im not meant to do this kind of thing after all. my chinese sux so bad lol, couldn't talk too alot of ppl at first. din't know how to say 'make your pledge' in chinese lol. after awhile though, there were many more english talking ppl, and i realised u din't have to only approach the patients.

some ppl seemed really happy to write their pledges though. there was this aunt who had it for ten years already, but still she was really very cheerful and friendly. there was also another guy who requested us to sent the photo to him, or he'll come after hardik lol. not in the fierce way la of cos. just that he knew we were students so he kinda wanted to train us to carry out promises lol. so yea we did this for about two other ppl too.

anyway, after the event, most of us walked back to JE together. they kept trying to interrogate wong about what changed him haha. especially jookee lol, who was super jealous of wong lol, which he should be haha, cos wong has changed. but to protect wong's privacy, only the gang will know heheh.

today went to pin's house to make pineapple tarts. was pretty late lol. ironic considering i wasn't late yesterday when it was JE, but late today when its pin's house. i really like going to his house lol, cos his mum is damn nice, and his aunt, dad, and maid are cool people.

started off with making the dough. was pretty simple except im such a failure at this things and kept... failing haha. pin's maid was like laughing at me lol. and yea they were making jokes about having low yield o.o. was quite lol cos we needed three people to sieve. and was mainly pin and rong arguing who could cook better haha.

after that was cutting the dough. i completed failed at it, but i realised that u could decorate the tarts with small strips of dough haha. so i found my job for today, which was making lots of smiley faces lol. everyone was like complaining i was doing it too slow lol >.<. just like that time we were making meatballs heheh.

helped boon chong and pin make the dass and 605 rocks thing, cos i know their class absolutely loves this sort of thing lol. they even wrapped the dass thing and going to give her tmr. so yea in total we spent about two hours plus to finish making all the tarts, but jookee still wasn't there yet lol.



why din't i do this for my class too lol

he only came at about 4pm. never learn his lesson from yesterday tsktsk. but we seriously had nothing left for him to do haha. so ended up eating and talking about japan with pin's family :D. and also about dialects lol, which i absolutely dun understand. and i supposedly should be very good, since my mum's teochew and dad's hokkien. but no i couldn't.

we also ended up doing a bit of band stuff for fun haha, cos pin and jookee was there. ended eating dinner at pin's house again too. i think my house food is pretty okay, but their dinner there really very good. im jealous tskkk. but maybe its cos my standard for food is pretty low haha. anyway, took home my 14 precious smiley faces haha. my parent's liked it yea, but my mum claims she can make the pineapple jam better, which i don't really believe lol.

ok that's it for now. bye ^^

praises still make me feel so happy even now haha

the gang is back :D

the gang is back :D. today was really fun, cos we went to do all those things again like old times. its like back to yr 4 again, except we are now damn free so we can do more epic stuff haha. playing futsal, chicken fighting, playing bridge, murderer, hearing wong and chee arguing. really darn glad that the gang is back. its like the group that makes me feel included and loved :D.

recently, i've been going home really late to just to do things in school. even though when i reach home, eat, bath, there's only one hour left before sleeping. and i spend it on RM anyway. then its school the next day again. i know im not being dilligent. im sorry, to those ppl who spend 3 hours mugging physics or english, and so longgg on their chem report and stuff. really salute and commend the effort ppl put in.

but this kind of time spent feels so satisfying, so amazing. by making myself go slightly further out to gain more enjoyment and satisfaction. its like finally i found things that i'd willingly spend more effort to do, which is quite rare for me for this six years of high school. it feels like i've gained something, though im not really sure what it is. whatever it is, its pretty motivating.

so yea. im thinking of trying to do as many things as i can this year, and making a record of what things i did differently everyday. so that at the end of the year, i'll have so many things done that this last year will become a memorable one haha. ok that's all for now. bye ~~

i know what not to do or try anymore. but no matter what, i'll do my best to help if im ever needed.