sometimes i dont really like the feeling i get on fridays. even though i only have one lesson that day. even though i can see my family again at the end of the day. just sometimes i feel like my school life is ending too fast. i have so much fun throughout the week, and then i realise its almost over already. wednesday thursday and friday just merge itself to one day. maybe i just dont want to ever leave school...
anyway, on fb i see jun yi doing some 365 project and hansol recording down her hostel life in photos. maybe photos work better than big chunks of words. cos all u need is one glance to remember. i dont even post everyday, and cant really describe all the epic stuff that happened, cos all thats left is memories. but thankfully i have this blog. if not ill feel this gaping hole in me when hostel finally ends. cant imagine what that'll be like :(
anyway this friday was ok la. after math i just spent the whole time slacking off... as usual. at least there were ppl in my room. i dont like slacking off in sch alone, cos i keep feeling like im missing out on something somewhere. anyway, had oral test at 2. was quite ok actually. as in i dint really talk very well but i think he get what i mean even though i use the wrong words cos i cant find the right words.
today morning i dont really feel like mentioning... anyways i cant do this anymore. i keep relying on others to help me, even though i dont personally ask them. its just they care so they help, but i end up not caring about it at all. maybe this is the main problem with me, that i have to make others to look after myself... i need to attune my brain. well at least i changed like 360 degrees since year 1, so yep ใงใใใ！.
went out again at 4. i think i wont be going back for class until next term, or maybe nvr anymore. i was damn quiet, cos i dint know what to say. anyway i deserve to feel guilty so next time i wont make the same mistake + after the coffee + haircut things are kinda normal again.
next week exams le im still slacking off haiz... can someone suggest to me easy topics to do for ca affairs? thnx lolz. anyway, i shud try to slp early today and/or not wake up late tmr. bye~~
P.S. i wanna try out lucid dreaming some time :P. apparently i can make anything happen in that state. thats way cool.
maybe hoping that tmr would give me a better chance is why the days pass by so fast...
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